Tuesday, March 19, 2013 0 b*tchin

Prison

Dear bloggie,

What is the best kind of prison for men?

A prison where the one imprison isn't aware he is in one...
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Milk & Meat

Dear bloggie,

Watched the movie "Fork over knives"... My thoughts about the movie... Well, it's does bring out a few provocative revelations such as:

1. Animal meat = Cancer!?
2. Milk = Lead to osteoporosis!!?
3. Real man eat plant!!!?

So, what is fact and what is fiction? The movie promotes 'full vegan' diet as way to go, and actually back it up with the typical unhealthy guy at start of movie, but eat vegan for x weeks case study... No prizes for those that guessed the unhealthy guy ended up more healthy after x weeks.

For me, the revelations does challenges my taken for granted knowledge on nutrition. I mean, a balance meal is a mixture of protein, carbo, fat and vitamin/minerals. For a carnivore like me, my source of protein usually is animal meat, eggs or milk. Now being told that I got my nutrition facts all wrong, and I been shoving cancer promoting food down my mouth put myself in reflection mode. Now that I think about it, how do we really know what we eat is good or bad? We typically refer to those FDA or by conventional wisdom... but how do we even know if these are reliable sources?

Anyway, the main evidence put forward in the movie is a massive scale case study in china where the huge number of rural areas are analysis in terms of diet against cancer rate. The study single out most area that diet consist more of meat have higher rate of cancer. My thoughts on this... well, I personally think it's great if one goes one a vegan diet, but to link meat with cancer perhaps is flawed in the sense, our ancestors have been hunting and eating meat since like A LONG TIME AGO, and yet the cancer ratio have actually pummel the last few decades... I feel it's not meat that's the problem, but rather what shit get feed/injected to the animal that get turns to meat that's really the problem. And when we traverse on why shit get feed/inject to these animal, we go down a familiar path of capitalism at the root of this problem. I however agree that the modern western diet is really farked up... Fast food, canned shit, etc... 

As for milk being bad,  I dunno... The argument that cow milk is made for calf hence not good for us human sounds farked up. Are plants made to be eaten by human? I however would give a benefit of doubt on the milk leading to osteoporosis argument.

So my conclusion I can draw from this movie, while it's the main theme of the movie to encourage us to be full vegan... I believe we ought to walk the middle path and simply eat more vegetable and cut down on meat and milk instead...
Sunday, March 17, 2013 0 b*tchin

Yesterday Once More

Dear bloggie,

How times fly noes? Was digging my drawer when I saw tis...

My old college ID card... Hard to believe it has already been like 8-9 years ago... 

Personally I think I look alot younger in this picture (most my olds frens now say I look more "mature", which actually means I look like a geezer), and not forgetting my hair was abundance (tarik from side can cover face, now like sahara desert got a few cactus left)... 

Having compare my dashing looks, so what else is different from my younger self? For starters, while most of u can't see, I'm weight more now (not fatter but more buff OK!)... It's like comparing the incredible stick men and the amazing spiderman.... I probably got more "T" as well (Note: T = Testosterone) and think I still can throw a wicked electrifying eye contact (which tends to frighten most chicks to flee)...

That's physical differences, how about mind and spirit? Spiritually I'm corrupted by "The Capitalism". Have so many desires (desire = suffering) Money, Girl, House, Girl, Car, Girl, Status, Girl, Sex, Girl... I recall my younger self being more in tune with "Zen" having less desires.... Probably have to blame my younger self for being so ambitious less which result in my depressing state of being... 

F*CK U YOUNG BOY! 
WHY THE F*CK U DIDN'T KAU LUI BACK THEN!? 
WHY DIDN'T U PICK A BETTER CAREER FIELD!? 
WHY DIDN'T U BUY MORE 4 EKOR!?

Now I got that outta my chest, I also change a bit in terms of taste. I used to favor less bright color like blue, gray, black... Now however I'm find flashy bright colors like red, orange, gold as acceptable. 

In terms of fashion, I don't think I changed much, still favor simple t-shirts but maybe I'm leaning more towards slim-fit size more compared to baggy size which I used to favor (more muscle to show de mah, lol)... I do find myself less incline to wear jeans de, find denim material too hot and uncomfortable to wear. 

Car preference leh, I still like classic sporty car design like RX-6, Lancer, etc compared to those modern fat curve cars design like vios, myvi, city, etc but I have respect for small fat@$$ car like Myvi since very convenient to drive and park.

Well, when it comes to the big topic like girl, I'm still single and romantically hopeless...  More of my friends (not to mention anyone) around my age is probably married and have 1-2 parasites de or have a galfren de... But here I am, a social outcast... The reality of living the rest of my life single don't seem so impossible anymore....

Attitude wise, I probably more depressed than I was back then but I think my depression peak was probably 1-2 years ago... Who knows, maybe it will hit another all time high this year.... I'm less nihilist and perhaps believe more in fate and destiny now. Believe more in one should participate in life despite whatever reality (our live is fated or our live is our own creation). Wiser now perhaps I am... More aware of my mortality, flaws and uniqueness (or how freaky I am)...

So at the end of the long comparison, I have to ask myself the question... 

If I had a chance to restart my live from 8-9 years ago how would I relive it?

While I may b*tch I would do tis and tat differently, I personally think I would most likely relive it exactly as I had, but maybe with some minor changes...  Guess despite the crap/shit I experienced this past 8-9 years, deep inside me, I come to appreciate these crap/shit as things that not only mold but reveal to me, who I really am (despite me being a pile of crap/shit, lol). 

"Everything is always a give-take, you gain something, you loss something else"

If often the case, are we able stay compose when we loss something to see the thing we gain in return...

Ending this entry, here an oldies song:



Carpenters - Yesterday Once More

When I was young
I'd listen to the radio
Waitin' for my favorite songs
When they played I'd sing along
It made me smile.

Those were such happy times
And not so long ago
How I wondered where they'd gone
But they're back again
Just like a long lost friend
All the songs I loved so well.

Every Sha-la-la-la
Every Wo-o-wo-o
Still shines
Every shing-a-ling-a-ling
That they're startin' to sing's
So fine.

When they get to the part
Where he's breakin' her heart
It can really make me cry
Just like before
It's yesterday once more.

Lookin' back on how it was
In years gone by
And the good times that I had
Makes today seem rather sad
So much has changed.

It was songs of love that
I would sing to then
And I'd memorize each word
Those old melodies
Still sound so good to me
As they melt the years away.

Every sha-la-la-la
Every wo-o-wo-o
Still shines
Every shing-a-ling-a-ling
That they're startin' to sing's
So fine.

All my best memories
Come back clearly to me
Some can even make me cry.

Just like before
It's yesterday once more.