2014 in retrospective

Dear bloggie,

I'll start this blog entry with a very cliché opening...

"What is the meaning of life"

I been asking this question for almost 1/2 of my life... It seems that every time I take a step forward in my quest to find an answer for this question, the answer would seem another 2 steps further away from me.

Life sometimes befuddles me... Sometimes it seems like a majestic piece of creation by god... at the same time sometimes it seems like a tornado of chaotic, meaningless, empty dark void pit.

I sit here now at the edge of the final eclipse of the year 2014, staring into the face of this strange yet familiar face in the mirror in front of me. I'm unable to tell apart the facial difference from a year ago with exception of less hair that grace this face now.

As MFR told me, 2014 been quite an eventful year for me. I kicked off this year at 1/2 way through my 5 months self imposed exile from the workforce from the previous year. I had to wait until March to start work as my new job only requires me to report in then. I then joined this good company which even gave me the opportunity to travel to the US for training.

I spent a month in the US, where within that 1 month I expanded my eyes to the vastness of the horizon in this world. I lived in this beautiful and serene city of Manassas. I also get to visit Washington DC, Skyline Drive (in Shenandoah Park), Luray Caverns, Baltimore, and even New York! Despite all the bad images and conception from media, tv and etc... I learnt that US is really a beautiful place to be. It was truly a memorable trip that will stay etched in my memory for a very long time, with exception of the tiring long 16+ hours flight time.

Work wise, nothing spectacular happening. I felt my growth in learning again stumped. Unlike my previous job which was fast pace and have a tight dateline which forced my skill to grow, the environment here at my new workplace is perhaps too relax to forced me to grow. I however as always fulfill my tasks which is required of me, which is something I take pride in... getting the job done. The lack of simulation to grow and stress of dealing with one of my colleague does arouse my desire to find a new job... but the scale between good and bad favours the good more hence I will remain where I am for now.

I also finally achieve my goal of hitting the 70 kg weight on the scale. The journey which began 5 years ago finally ended. I gained 10 kg across this 5 years, which I think is rather good. While I'm no Arnold Schwarzenegger, I feel I'm way more sturdier than I was 5 years ago. A end of one journey leads to the beginning of another one. My new goal is to lose fat while maintain muscle mass to stabilize at the 65 kg mark. It been a rather yo-yo battle as I gain and loss weight and currently weighting 68 kg.

Achievement wise, achieve nothing major. I did however won 2nd place for Male Top Scorer in a Inter Department Bowling competition in my company.

Not all is sunshine though, as my grandmother and grand aunty passed away. Somehow, I feel like a piece of me was forever lost. Despite my stance to distance myself from my relatives, I feel I am bonded to my relatives though a link which run deeper than blood.

As for my romance life, it's another dry run year for me. I think I'd finally recovered from the rejection that thrown my monkish life upside down. I felt some attraction to a few girls in my office, but as for trying to catch another fish, I think I will maintain my stance of not trying and let things be. MFR berated me for my lazy and cowardice approach but somehow a part of me already resigned to the fact I'm meant to live the rest of my life alone.

So to sum it all up, I would have to say 2014 is a pretty good year for me. Not so optimistic on 2015 being better or even able to equal this year. However that is another post for next year...