2014 New Year Resolution

Dear bloggie,

1. Travel more
2. Slack more
3. Earn more
4. Run more
5. Read more
6. Bulk up more
7. Depress more
8. Booze more
9. Blog more
10. More more

Yea, my original 1st draft of my "more" new year resolution list... Anyway, a revised resolution version:

1. Visit a foreign land
2. Start gambling investing in dividend stocks
3. Facebook less
4. Achieve my fitness goals
5. Write a full fledged application using Spring Roo
6. Write a few technical post on Spring Roo in this blog
7. Learn to say "Fuck You" in 12 different languages
8. Land 3 1 date
9. Refactor my room
10. Get a monk hairdo
11. Watch more documentary movies

Bakau's Top Ten 2013 Movie

Dear bloggie,

Without further ado... drums roll pls...

My top ten best movie I seen in 2013:

1. Unbeatable - Great acting by Nick Cheung and Cystral Lee, some over the top MMA action, a plot similar to The Warrior... and tada... my favorite Chinese movie of the year
2. Warm Bodies - Zombie, who doesn't love em? A interesting mix of comedy, romance and zombie make this my favorite zombie flick of the year
3. 2 Guns - This movie is a riot, stealing the thunder from other no-brainer-action movies like Fast n Furious 6, Olympus have fallen, GI Jane, Wolverine
4. Hunger Games: Catching Fire - Overall good but I feel not as good as episode 1.
5. Before Midnight - The evolution of the "Before XXX" series is indeed a unique unlike any other. Part 1 was about "Finding the One", part 2 was more about "2nd Chance", this one however if I had to sum it up "True Love". Both Ethan and Delpy gave stellar performance, the script contained some really good lines, the awesome fight scene near the end... However it's the darker tone of the overall movie that it imprint into me compared to the 2nd one which make me rate it not as good as the 2nd part. Still no doubt best romance movie of the year
6. Pacific Rim - Gundam, Kaiju, Japanese Babe, Apocalypse... Popcorn seller movie of the year hands down. "We're cancelling the apocalypse!"
7. Frozen - This movie easily brush aside Despicable Me 2, Monster U, Epic, The Croods to wins the best animated movie (and musical) for this year
8. Gravity - Tips Pacific Rim and The Hobbit for the best CGI movie. Love the concept but feel the story is a bit too action oriented for my liking
9. Star Trek: Into Darkness - Great movie with notable performance from Benedict as the villain Khan. Story wise, some hardcore Star Trek fans would argue too action packed, I think the balance was just nice. Only complaint is the other villains crew with their uniform is too gay.
10. Rush - The unexpected movie that blew me away this year. Drama, action, fast cars, larger than live, great acting, documentary... this movie has it all...

Worthy mentions:
Ender's Game, Now You See Me, Elysium, Despicable Me 2, Oblivion, World War Z, Ironman 

Over hyped:
Man of Steel, Hobbit: Desolation of Smurf
Didn't see but thinks highly rated:
Captain Philip, Great Gatsby, Blackfish, The Great Beauty, 12 Years as a Slave

Didn't see but thinks highly sucked:
Tanda Putera, Justin Bieber: Believe

Spaghetti Aglio E Olio

Dear bloggie,

My lunch...

"Spaghetti aglio e olio ("spaghetti with garlic and oil" in Italian) is a traditional Italian pasta dish, said to originate traditionally from the region of Abruzzo, although it is popular across the country.

The dish is made by lightly sauteeing minced or pressed garlic in olive oil, sometimes with the addition of dried red chili flakes, and tossing with spaghetti. Finely chopped parsley can also be added as a garnish, along with grated parmesan or pecorino cheese, although according to some traditional recipes, cheese should not be added." - Wikipedia

Reseting Malaysia

Dear bloggie,

I can recently hear a lot of b*tchin bout the "barang naik" stunt our malaysian government has pulled. Sugar, petrol, water, electricity... toll and very soon GST.

All, I can say is... Yes! Naik lagi! Most people would be thinking I'm a nutjob or have too much $$$... but what most of these retards fail to realize is we need the government to raise the prices of thing some more... You see, we need to look at the big picture. The fact is, despite what ever nonsense the opposition, NGO, or anyone tells you, the truth is we will never kick BN/UMNO outta Malaysia via the general election. Rely on the "people" to vote for a change is like going to the casino to win against the house... You see, the house always wins.

Fair play? People power? Justice prevails? Hahahaha... Previously, 5 year ago, MFR berated me for not voting in the general election. Back then I didn't vote because I didn't believe in the system of democracy itself. I meant if 6 outta 10 people voted to enforce a stupid rule, lets say we need to f*ck a bus every morning, the other 4 people need to suffer due to the idiocy of the other 6. Looking back, I think I was wrong. I was wrong to place the blame at democracy. The problem isn't the system, it's the people. What kinda government one can hope to expect from a society of people that core values is built upon "Greed is good"? 

Anyway back to the main topic, I support the government raising the price of things. Why? We need more inflation in prices. The price inflation needs to tip the scale of mentality among Malaysians where we're have nothing more to lose. Once we Malaysians have nothing more to lose, then and only then are most of us willing to risk ourself in the line of fire to make a change to happen. As I said earlier, I don't believe our country will ever be free from BN/UMNO via the rigged game of general election (Considering a huge amount of Malaysian have short term memory and are brainwashed to be stupid beyond godlike). I believe a change can only occur via more aggressive means such as hunger strike, work strike, riot, etc... The problem is, most Malaysians at the moment really aren't willing to sacrifice themselves for this change. Yea, yea, yea, you can gloat bout that you went for the voting to vote for a change, or you can say you join BERSIH 3.0 and stand in the hot sun for 1 bloody day to protest...  You seriously think BN/UMNO is affect by this protest? You want to hurt them, don't work for 1 week. If enough of us don't work, what you think will happen to our country economy? While it's possible the whole country go into ruins, but the price for change isn't always cheap... But is it not worth it for our future generations?

However how many for us (I put myself in this list as well) are willing to say I won't work for a week to protest our government? Most of us probably giving excuse, no work no money... how to support family la, how to bring pay loan, how to pay for the starbuck coffee I everyday drink la... The reality is harsh but I feel we Malaysian simply don't deserve a better government... We talk about a lot of wrong doings of the government, but most of the time its because these wrong doings affect us only we bitch about it. The Penan rape incident for instance, Most of us would just comment "Wtf!" ,"How can this happen? What are authority doing?" blablbabla in facebook from the comfort of our cosy chair... but how many of us actually willing to go out to street and protest demanding for justice? And why aren't many of us going to the street to protest? The reality is most of us don't protest cause it doesn't concern us. And we all talk about racism in the government, but the the last general election ever wondered how racist we were by targeting peoples that look like Bangla, Indo, etc? I recall a quote by Douglas Lim which goes something like

"We chinese don't like the malay keep treating us like foreigners considering our ancestor have migrate here for so long de. During this election, when I hear banglas, indos, etc can vote, something inside of me as a Malaysian burn. Like how can these foreigners vote. But if you look back 30-40 years ago, didn't our ancestor came to Malaysia like these foreigners? And that feeling we are feeling towards the foreigners is the same feeling the malays are feeling towards us chinese as well"

(Note: Can't remember the exact quote but the message is the same)

Putting aside my sentiments aside, I think the price raise by BN/UMNO could be a catalyst to start a fire that could reset our country. That's why I'm asking for our beloved government to raise it some more. Most Malaysians are slaves to money, so maybe by taking that away from us, we might actually grow a ball to take a more braver stand for a change in Malaysia.

Xmas Depression...

The following blog entry contains depression and religion sensitive rants which may upset those that are currently in a jolly good mood and those hardcore religion pagans. If you can't take this kind of content, get the f*ck out ASAP. Therapist and priest supervision is advised.

Dear bloggie,

~I can feel it coming in the air tonight, oh lord
~I've been waiting for this moment, all my life, oh lord
~Can you feel it coming in the air tonight, oh lord, oh lord

Yea, the season of so-called joy and merry has arrived again... I'm feeling quite depressed... How in hell can I be depressed in such jovial holiday? Well, I happen to read a very interesting read that I think explain this phenomena.


Excerpt from "Hitchhiker Guide to Single Loserhood" page 10:

LSD short for Lonely/Loser, Single & Depressed refers to a collection of people which are doomed to live their pathetic life alone without a soul mate. This collection of people find it hard to attract the opposite sex for a variety of reason, ranging from:

• Physical disabilities (eg: born ugly, born short, born bald, born infertile, etc)
• Status disabilities (eg: born poor, born not as anak Datuk, etc)
• Exhibits ab "normal" society behavior (eg: dreamer, lack materialism, lack ambition, don't like K-pop, etc)
• Mentally disarranged (eg: ~I'm a creep ~I'm a weirdo) 
• Lack 'attractive' behavior desired by opposite sex (eg: not jerk, not player, not wild, too nice, etc)

Shunned by all people of their opposite sex, LSD is forced to either be themselves but be single or attempt to pretend they're not who they really are to stand a chance to con someone of their opposite sex to consider them as soul mate candidate.

The natural nemesis of LSD (which they hate passionately) are the Smiley peoples. Smiley people are in simple English, happy and optimistic in life peoples. A common misconception is that Smiley people are mutually exclusive from the LSD peoples, which is a huge area of debate as "happiness is a state of mind rather then consequence of the state you are in". Hence one can be in reality is a LSD but due to the power of mind, create the illusion one is happy hence fulfilling the requirement to be categorized as a Smiley people. This argument has lead LSD hardcore people to fondly and sarcastically call the Smiley people as DIBB (DIBB is often purposely mispronounced as Dick) which is abbreviated from Disillusioned Ignorant Blissful Bastard. Smiley people often retaliated to this mockery by happily calling LSD people as "Sour Pussies"


Excerpt from "Hitchhiker Guide to Single Loserhood" page 76:

LSD peoples have a knack to feel depressed or to be more exact more depressed than usual during the following holidays:

• Valentine Day
• Christmas
• New Year
• Easter
• S.A.D (Single Awareness Day)

Bakau Kor, controversial and maverick activist of the "Stop being a DIBB" movement and also a LSD himself claimed these holidays is a classical self-deceiving propaganda created by DIBB to fool themselves into thinking they are happy. "Personally I don't really care if these dick wanna pretend/act/disillusion to be happy but this 'I'm happy' holiday shit is affecting LSD as well. These dick would paste shitty fake jovial comments and photos in facebook, twitter and what ever social networking crap they daily use to fabricate a 'happy' life and when LSD people will see this shit, they are unable to create a fake 'happy' mood and fall into even deeper depression. How more selfish can one be? We should include a S for Selfish into DIBB and call them DIBBS instead!"   

On a rather funny side note, one of these jovial holidays has also draw the ire of former famous cartoon character, Bugs Bunny. "Eh... wassup DIBB!?  Why do they need to create the damn Easter holiday? It's bad enough these looney live in a fake world but do they need create a happy bunny that distribute chocolate eggs to children? Do they even know rabbits don't lay eggs, more so CHOCOLATE eggs? A Easter Hen would still be stupid but at least it make more sense. To top it all up, these DIBB really ought to put more effort into their holiday creation thingy, I mean common... just change the happy bunny into a happy fatass, change chocolate eggs to presents... Wala, Christmas... Simply plain f*cking lazy..."

Excerpt from "Hitchhiker Guide to Single Loserhood" page 80:

Christmas, a holiday created to celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ. While in reality, no one knows the exact date Jesus was born, Christians in general decided it was simply convenient to simply randomly declare 25 December as Jesus Christ's birthday. During the Christmas eve, by tradition family and friend would get together for a turkey dinner. On the Christmas morning, people would exchange presents to show they care for each other. It's a common trend now day to have a countdown event where a bunch of people would gather at a place with a big timer and celebrate the arrival of Christmas together. "A day where we MUST be jovial and nice to others... This stinks of a dick I'm so familiar of" a LSD lady whom refused to have her identity revealed here revealed.

Another point of criticism resolves around the superhero of Christmas himself. The iconic fat man named Santa Claus is believed to be a convenient fabricated fusion of Saint Nicholas, Odin and Father Christmas. Many LSD people have harshly criticized the propaganda of Santa Claus giving presents only to good child, calling for the public to stop discriminating upon children. "It's bad enough we're already have religion, race, skin color crap going on, and now we want to add another category to further split the human race again? Top philosophers have debated what is good for centuries and none have come up with a definite conclusion on what is good... Now we're asking children to be good when no one knows what it is? Truth is we're not asking children to be good, we're just asking them to be follow our fabricated society norm." 


While some points raise by LSD people make sense, others are just plain bullsh*t... I personally think LSD peoples just as disillusioned as DIBB peoples. They're just using their criticisms as a mean to fabricate a "distraction" from being depressed, just like how I'm using writing this garbage blog entry to distract myself from feeling depressed.

GYM F*ck List

Dear bloggie,

I been gymin for a good 4-5 years and I think I seen enuff f*ck in the gym to compile a list of f*ckin things that make me goes "Damn it, f*ck!"

So without further ado...

1. D*ckheads hogging equipment. I understand it will take some time for one to complete their sets but when that someone is more busy doing something else (like talking) rather than working, you know wat? F*ck you! Wanna exercise your mouth pls go to the sofa area, chat till song dun hog the equipment.
2. Squat barbell lock. This is one of the things I hate the most. The previous d*ck that was using the squat barbell used those locks to secure the weights onto the barbell and after finish using em don't bother removing em.
3. Pussy Pose Posse. Quite often I get the chance to palm face myself when I see these pussies. There pussies would be admiring  orgasm themselves at the mirror. You'll see shit like some d*ck after completing a set of bicep curl pulling their shirt off exposing their belly to marvel at themselves in the mirror. While I understand the sensation of the pump after completing the exercise, however I wish I could be spared from this shit. It's often feel like some d*ckhead is jerking himself off beside me.
4. Huff and puff. These bunch of clowns believe in the bro science that by emulating the sound when they are shitting, they are able to increase their strength capability by 300%. Often the shitting audio is accompany with the loud sound of the weights being thrown to the ground after completing the set. I often wish one of these weights could ended up landing on these clowns feet.
5. Gay spotter. Nothing wrong with this actually, just like to take a cheap poke at the expense of the tons of spotter I seen in the gym. These spotter often look like a molestation case from a porno site. Take for instance squat spotter, 2 big guys positioned like a standing doggie style sex position.  Then the front guy squat, the back follow squat with his hand cupping the front guys chest... -___-'
6. Attention seeker. Now and then, you will get the chance to see this attention seekers in the gym seeking... attention. From dancing in the gym area to forcing themselves into dangerous yoga poses. Observe these shit hole hormones go into overdrive when there is a chick within their vicinity.
7. Now, word of advice when using the tools in the men looker's room like the hair dryer. I seen some really nasty shit on how some retards use these hair dryer. From armpit, chest, leg and even drying their d*ck. I often laugh to myself whenever I seen a pussy pose posse flexing their muscle in front of the mirror while hair drying their hair with these hair dryer that has been used to dry someone else balls.
8.  Ubat sakit sendi. This shit stinks... why oh why do you need to apply this perfume in the locker room? 
9. "Trainers" doing their sales pitch. Imagine doing cardio on the treadmill, when suddenly these "trainers" would come to do their sales pitch on the person beside your treadmill. Now you're probably wondering why tis annoy me since it doesn't involve me. Well, for starters if these trainer were doing their pitch on me it won't be so bad since I would just say "Not interested, pls bugger off" and it would be the end of the whole scenario but instead we have a long f*ckin chat between the trainer and the person beside me. I understand the trainer need to do some lick shoe socializing but shouldn't the emphasis be more on the workout instead of socializing? I seen a trainer training his client on the treadmill by serving as a pillow to the client.  Imagine the client b*tchin bout her life to the trainer while walking on the treadmill for the entire session with the trainer. *Sigh*
10. Kau lui in gym. Now, now... it's quite common reason, some people come to the gym to kau lui and to be honest I seen quite a lot of successful coupling. It's just annoy me tat till today I never had any chance in the gym.

Crash Diet

Dear bloggie,

By principal, I'm never a believer of crash diet as I belief that fitness is a marathon not a 100m sprint...

However inspired by a youtube video I saw where a dude which has a similar body fat as I current have that undergo a 2 week fish and broccoli diet... which resulted in a ripped belly made me wonder if I can achieve the same result as well.

I will be trying out a less extreme version of his diet.

In his diet, he ate

70g oats for breakfast followed by
200g of fish and 200g of broccoli every 3 hours later on (total x5)

An estimated total of 1,350 calories perday

From what I read, the minimum calories a male should consume a day is 1,200 (eating less then this figure would result in body going into starvation mode, lowering our body metabolism rate hence making it harder to burn fat)

I decided on the following diet:

70g oats for breakfast
200g of fish and 1/2 can of beans for lunch
Any dinner meal
Egg sandwich (2 slices of gardenia breads and 1 fried egg) for snack
1 cup of protein dope

Making it an estimated 785 + x calories, where x is the calories from dinner meal. I estimate I require a heavy 400-500 calories dinner meal to make the 1,200 safety calories mark. My strategy is to reduce my daily calories intake by cutting down in carbs and fat, while maintaining my protein intake. I also allocate a wildcard dinner meal to satisfy my "tasty" food craving to prevent my morale to go over the line and make it easier on myself as I usually eat dinner prepared by my mom.

On side note, I forecast I can save quite a lot in eating this diet as well, as the cost perday would be around RM7 excluding dinner meal, which is dirt cheap. I however do have concern on meeting the minimum 1.2K calories requirement, how this diet will affect my energy level for my workout, getting insufficient nutrition and minerals from vegetables from my wildcard dinner meal alone and how DEAD my tastebud would end up after this diet.

Anyway, lets see how tis diet plays out for me... If I managed to gather enough discipline to follow it that is...

Incase ur wondering, wtf bout the vid tat actually made me EVEN consider going for a diet:

Grails, kau lui and silly reply

Dear bloggie,

While messing around with Grails, I actually came across this screen after pumping some rather funny sample test data.

Lost

Dear bloggie,

Today in my facebook news feed, I saw a album upload of one of my generation's classmate tying the knot. A part of my feel happy that my classmate found that someone special in his life to spend the rest of his life with, another part of me feels the depressed and even envy to a degree...

I'm already hitting the mid-age line and yet there's no sign I would ever find someone special in my life. I get the feeling, I'll probably die alone...

Coupled this with my current unemployment exodus, I find myself lost. Lost in this endless sea of possibilities... Everyone is perhaps born with the unlimited possibilities of what they can achieve or do with his/her life. While we would never know where any of these possibilities would lead us to, failure or success, I have that choice in our hand. Lucky ones find their path early, while some like me perhaps are still unable to find their way. I thought given enough time, I would eventually find the path I want to walk but somehow I fear they may not be one for me. I often ponder why did I survive the car accident 3-4 years back... Is it because I still have incomplete thing I need to perform in God's Fate Script? Is it because I still haven't pay enough for my past karma? Is is simply pure random luck I survive?

Sometimes I wished I lack the curiosity to think of this kind of things... Why we exists? Who am I? Why is this world so f*cked up? Why are people so blind to the fragility of their life? Blablabla... Without this thoughts, I feel I would live my life more stupidly but I think I would be less depressed than I currently am... Ignorance is after all bliss, they say...

Body Composition

Dear bloggie,

Did a body composition test yesterday... Here was my stats:

Weight: 68.0 kg
BMI: 22.5
Body Fat: 16%
Viscera Fat: 5
BMR: 1602
Body Age: 28

Overall my body is in "healthy" category, with my muscle growth plateauing, my current goal is to reduce my body fat and viscera fat. Sadly with my leg still having injured, won't be able to jog as cardio (+ I hate the stationary bike) and my lack of discipline in eating, I don't foresee myself meeting this goal anytime soon.

Wolf Among Us Impression

Dear bloggie,



Nothing short of Chuck Norris bad@$$etry...

Wow, fairy tales characters getting exiled into our world and forced to take a dose of reality... That's one freaking awesome story setting...

Fuck You #1 : Fakku Anata

Dear bloggie,

Happen to noticed my bucket list on the side of my blog and decided to attempt cross out another in the list.

Will try to learn how to say the universal greeting/cursing "Fuck You" in 50 languages.

So I'll start with my favourite foreign country...

Land under constant harassment of giants

Free sex, AV and watever imaginable sex style human being can cum up with

Where people can dress up as their favorite fictional heroes/villains/sex fiends and walk around the street without being look at like some weirdo

Birthplace of one of the greatest piece of creation of mankind

Origin of the Hollywood movie about a gaijin that came to exterminate the local's warriors but ended up slaying their leader's brother in law, bromance with their leader (the leader must really have hated his brother in law), learn their cheat code to yield katana like Luke Skywalker, watch the wife of the local warrior he killed bath and also somehow get to kiss her...

Ah yes, Japan!

ファック あなた (Fakku Anata) = Fuck You

(Note: If ur a male that's straight n above 20 but "claim" to not recognize the pretty face model with the sexy pose above, fakku anata!)

6 Months of TIM

Hello bloggie my old fren,

I come to talk to you again...

Another page in my life has been flipped, and here I am again jobless and goalless. The last 6 months felt like a VERY LONG ride down the most rushed project I ever done... Not to mention the most responsibilities I was ever given and forced to bear project.

There were more cons in this project then pros which was why I decided to tap out instead of enduring the submission lock I was in. Let's talk about the pros 1st since I feel after I b*tch on the cons, I will get emotional and have a less detached rant  on the pros.

Pros:

• Experienced senior. I learn a lot from this senior. Database design, logging, maven built, concurrency control...
• Primefaces & JSF. Yes, I now will be able to add this 2 buzz word into my resume. Didn't even knew what Primefaces was 6 month ago.
• Opportunity.  I was given a lot of opportunity ranging from development, documentation, troubleshooting to preparing built. More opportunity = more learning
• 1st built from scratch application. My very 1st web application that I built from an empty project. Get to learn a lot of thing that one never get to learn by customizing an existing solution. Felt like I sort of level up in terms of web developing by experiencing this.

And now for the cons...

Cons:

•  Worst ever team management. Unrealistic dateline, impromptu tasks, lack of direction...
•  Worst ever team mates. Ranging from lack of skilled to egoistic senior, I'd would choose to work lone ranger in this project anytime. Sadly, my team lead enjoy to lump me with this colleagues as he think I can ying-yang these colleague problem. One of them is 5 years experienced Java Developer that from my rating could hardly make the "Fresh Java Graduate" rating. As a 5 years developer, I expect one to be able to at least use the common convention when naming their Java classes. Over abused use of sessions, inconsistent placement of classes in packages, 1 class do everything design pattern, abnormal java coding convention, lack of problem solving ability are everyday problem I faced when working with this colleague. As for the other colleague, I find myself having to come out of my common habit of no conflict to clash blade with him as I couldn't accept his way of designing solutions. Often I find myself in the scenario where he would reject my proposed way due to his lack of understanding of the technology in work (which he thinks he already knows very well). Then after I demonstrate that my proposed way works, I would have to deal with his constant "I do it my way" attitude which later he would blame on me. For instance, I once told him to add variable x in node a and variable y in node b, which he would end up doing add variable y in node a and variable x, z in node b and when I raise this issue to him, he would blame me saying this is the spec I gave to him. I almost blew my top when I advise him to remove a bunch of unused variables in his workflow which he again blame me for not telling him earlier (which I had and repeated times as well). And not to mention the way he talks, feels very condescending.
• Lack of responsibility. You break something, you fix it. A common programming practice which I learned and practice. Sadly suffice to say, you break something here, I have to fix it. This is mainly due to the lack to work tracking of my team lead and team senior whom often forget I'm not the only one that write codes in this application. Most of the time when the system has a problem, I become the b*tch to fix it. To make matters worst, I get schooled on common coding practices that resulted in the problem which really isn't my code. While the class name has my name as author on it, a quick check in svn can easily yield which god like developer that copy and paste my class and modified it without changing the author name.
• Team sync. There seriously is a lack of team sync within the team. No team camaraderie. The only one I could work with is a team senior. I often find this senior crossing blades with the other egoistic senior quite often. The egoistic also seems to take a liking to "complaint" to the higher ups whenever there's a problem the team is facing. I also got tangled in this when I was ordered to reply a email to our PM (and a bunch of higher ups) regarding a access denied problem we were facing with a 3rd party vendor file upload system. I wrote in the email the credential provided by the 3rd party was insufficient only to get a rather messy tangle when this senior decided to chip in and gave a load of bullshit on how inaccurate my description on the problem was due to credential but rather it was a problem of wrong profile. On a personal note, I don't care if it's due to a credential or profile problem, all I want is the 3rd party to gimme all the relevant information to make the webservice call
• Opportunity. I know I stated this as a pros but when TOO much opportunity is thrown in your plate, it becomes a con. Imagine merging the branch to trunk, debugging other people bug due to a bugfix in other people (shitty) code, thinking of a fix for that (not to mention a fix that works in the shitty code), performing a sanity test (QA), releasing the built, and sending email to relevant party to inform the built been release in a single Saturday.
• Burnt out. While we human works for  hours a day, the reality is we can only work efficiently for a good 5 hours a day. After that our brain is less pristine and performance goes down. And personally, I feel we can't push our self 100% every day, every week, every month or we will experience burnt out... However that is the scenario here. Throughout this whole 6 months project, I been going 90-100% with exception of a week where I decided to slow things down by not reporting I completed the task so I won't be assigned a new task ASAP. Every time without fail, when I reported I completed a task I would be immediately assigned a task let it be documentation or simple POC, there won't be like take a day to relax since you finish you task ahead the schedule here (Which makes it a norm here that the ones that finish their work are rewarded with more work while those that don't finish their work are punished by having their work finish by another person). And I would like to share how my last week in this project went: OT on my last Saturday and client side test deployment on my last day... Unbeliavable
• QA. I seriously have a BIG problem with how QA was done in this project. We developer's responsibility is to write software, while the QA are responsible to test them. So the question I raise is who then is responsible to setup the environment for QA to test. Since the QA is getting paid to test the code, logically they should be the one responsible to setup the environment to test noes? Sadly developers are sorta the lowest rank in the food chain here, imagine shit like preparing script for QA to do their testing to fixing god knows what is wrong with QA's server bug (without access to their bloody servers).
• Reporting. I'm come into this project as an outsource contractor. Hence I have to report to 2 superiors, my team lead and my company coordinator.  Every month I have to prepare a timesheet for my company coordinator so the can charge this project's owner kau kau for my hardwork and give me a small portion of that money. To make thing more difficult for me, the project owner also requested a task list of things I done that require a sign off by my team lead. But perhaps the thing that pisses me off is the "prove" they want to indicate I done my work. It isn't sufficient that the team lead signs the task list as this are just task the team lead assign to you but you may not have completed it. Hence the need for stupid "prove" such a screenshot of parts of module you worked on. So here's my problems, what if I'm doing a module with no screenshot? Say refactoring code? How do I "prove" I refactor my code? And screenshots... aren't those thing Photoshop able?

Retrospectively looking back, I learned a whole lot of things in this 6 months. But I'm glad as hell, I outta the project. I want the experience but the whole project is just simply too rushed and f*cked up. Anyway plan to take 1-2 month off to recover from this ordeal.

Love

Dear bloggie,

"It's not the love of one person that matters, it's the love of life. - Patrick, Before Midnight"

Happy birthday

Dear bloggie,

31 years of joy, sadness, bliss, pain, confusion, doubt, freedom, chance, hope, love, lust, greed, kindness, purity, materialism, individualism, patriotism, nihilism, anarchy, democratic, dictatorship, manipulation, ignorance, loneliness, madness, brilliance, civilization, humanity, inhumanity, cruelty, death, birth, rebirth, karma, zen, balance, chaos, justice, friendship, religion, faith, god, fate, choice, future, past, present, foresight, hindsight, physical, mental, spirit, art, music, rock, pop, jazz, country, city, country, world, race, skin color, blood type, gender, male, female, meeting, departure, dream, ambition, desire, suffering, truth, perspective, perception, think, instinct, action, follow, lead, plan, random, luck, gamble, knowledge, nature, remember, forget, forgive, acceptance, anger, denial, negotiation, compromise, fair, dark, evil, torture, tears, laughter, condemn, accuse, hatred, envy, respect, protect, destroy, preserve, circle, square, line, dot, water, earth, fire, wind, wood, water, reflection, imagination, dejavu,  deception, inception, start, middle, end, horizon, vertical, tall, short, fat, thin, ungrateful and gratitude...

Happy birthday to me...

Coffee for breakfast...

Dear bloggie,

Having lived in as a corporate slave for 8 years, I learn that different peoples have different goals in their life... Some want to be a rich, be a playboy, travel the world, etc...

Today being partially sick with a bloody mild fever, headache, sore throat, and cough... I decided to take the day off... After all I busted my arse to fix the pile of bugs... Also I had a interview appointment which I was really tempted to cancel and RnR at home...

Anyway, after having daily breakfast at home which consist of 2-3 pieces of karipaps and a cuppa of coffee... I felt the urge, to have a breakfast outdoor... Let it be mamak or a coffee shop... It's a wonderful morning, and it's such a waste to hide myself in my fortress of solitude. So I went out to have breakfast at mamak. I arrived at the mamak and noticed some people that were having their breakfast there. A bunch of old folks, a mother and his son, some lone rangers like me...

As I order the Breakfast Set A which consist of 2 half boiled eggs, 1 steam bread and 1 cuppa coffee at a price of RM4, I sat there wondering how at ease I was with myself... I wonder how such simple thing could be so satisfying...

As I sip my hot cheap mamak coffee, I gaze lazily at the serenity around me... and I wonder would I be happier if I work a less salary work but get to have more simple but serene moments like this one or would I rather work like I'm but get to drink an expensive starbucks coffee? I find the answer really funny, as while I yearn for luxury things like starbucks, expensive meals, etc... I deep inside think (or perhaps it's just wishful thinking) I would be happier getting to have a serene breakfast everyday at the cost of $$$. Logic dictates, leading such a simple low income life would lead me to financial ruins in the near future... but I ponder would the opposite really bring me happiness in return? Some Most people would probably tag me as a lazy arse for yearning for such a life...Why no aim higher, achieve more, etc... blablabla.... Money, fame, achievement, social status.... Are you life measured using these yardsticks? Are we nothing more but how much we have in our bank account? What and where we afford to dine? What kinda expensive watch we wear? What kind of car we drive? What kind of view the society view us as? I'm not saying having these thing define who we are is bad but is that what defines us as a whole?

I guess what kinda breakfast one yearns for differs from people to people... There's no right nor wrong... simply the fact one have to really take a look at oneself and then consider do I want to change my breakfast or not?

Still, I have to admit this morning breakfast was perhaps the most simple and yet most satisfying one I had in a very long time...

Pescetarians

Dear bloggie,

After watching a couple of documentary on food... I decided I will try to follow a pescetarians diet for the next 6 months.

Most of u probably be asking.. WTF is pescetarians? Well, the description with the least most words...

Pescetarians is a someone that eat only fish meat and vegetables.

Ya, so no more Burger King Grilled Chicken Burger, McChicken, KFC finger licking good drumsticks nor Bah Kut Teh for me anymore (Well, at least for the next 6 months). I think it's high time, I put a lid on the amount of trash I'm pumping into my body. At first I actually wanted to try out vegan diet, but I decided I still needed protein... hence I decided to grab em from fish, which happens to be a great source of omega fat. However I most likely still gonna include dairy and egg in my diet, as I doubt I can eliminate both of these food from my diet.

Now, problem tat plague my mind... will I be able to easily find food that could fit into my new diet? Imagine, I can't even order a wantan mee anymore... well, unless I dun eat the char siew... :(

Ironman 3 Review

Dear bloggie,

Watched Ironman 3 and have to say have mixed reaction towards it.

First, I would like to say what I liked about it:

1. Less Ironman, more Tony Stark. Taking a book outta Nolan's Batman series, Sometimes less is more. I have to admit, it does add more drama towards the movie seeing the more vulnerable Tony running around and docking normal grunts and also gives more "zing" whenever Ironman makes an appearance.

2. Breaking expected background of villains. I sorta like the twist they added to the baddies, especially the Mandarin.

3. Wear and tear. I really liked how the Ironman Mark 42 got introduced at the start at the movie and punishment it endured till the end of the movie. Sort portray the hardship and challenges Tony went thru towards the film. Reminds me of Batman: Arkham City where Batman suited up with a brand new Batman suit which piece by piece got broken down through the game.

4. "House Party" protocol. In case your wondering wtf is house party protocol, if u seen the trailer it's the scene where Tony summons his armada of Ironman suits as backup. We get to see alot of suits at that scene, and frankly speaking which comic fan wouldn't like this scene?

Next, what I dislike about the movie:

1. The boss fight was disappointing. Ironman AGAIN get owned by the villain. I was perhaps hoping a more balance boss fight, where both hero and villain would REALLY duke it out in a ding dong battle before the hero emerging victorious. Something like the Amazing Spiderman 2012, where Spiderman and The Lizard were almost equal.

2. Ironman Mark 42. I'm not too fond of the idea of having a prototype Ironman suit dictate most of the action scene. The prototype suit seems underpowered compared to his "other" suits with the only advantage it have is it can deattach into smaller components and fly to Tony. This downgrade sorta mirrors The Dark Knight Rises, where Bruce is no longer at his peak. Acceptable, but problem is while Batman was way past his peak, he could still kick a normal grunt butt and only got pawn by Bane. Here, this suit even struggles to deal with a few helicopter armed with some rocket and machine guns... Common, didn't he blew up thousand of aliens in the Avengers? With his "armada" of suits, I had to ponder why can't he switch suits through the movie instead, giving his other suits more airtime... Would diminish the ending scene "Wow", but less sometimes is more...

3. Main villain. While I liked the twist they added to Mandarin, I am disappointed with the final pussy villain. His ability which enable him to pawn Ironman is also VERY anticlimax. I was expecting perhaps a calculating and brutal Mandarin that would lay the smackdown on Ironman by sheer number, force and strategy, pushing the Ironman armor durability to the limit. Instead, the Ironman armor becomes like our country aluminum car...  Swiss Cheese

4. Supporting cast. War Machine after getting a paint job became a useless cast, hardly had any action scene. Pepper Pots pulled a Catwoman.... while I ponder why the director decided go down this direction, since she was supposed to be Tony's pillar of strength, spiritually and mentally rather than physically. Hogan gets KOed pretty early in the movie while Tony ex got gunned down after a few scenes.

While I liked the fresh direction of the movie, I feel lack better thought in implementation. Overall, I feel Ironman 3 is better than Ironman 2 but not as good as Ironman 1.

Prison

Dear bloggie,

What is the best kind of prison for men?

A prison where the one imprison isn't aware he is in one...

Milk & Meat

Dear bloggie,

Watched the movie "Fork over knives"... My thoughts about the movie... Well, it's does bring out a few provocative revelations such as:

1. Animal meat = Cancer!?
2. Milk = Lead to osteoporosis!!?
3. Real man eat plant!!!?

So, what is fact and what is fiction? The movie promotes 'full vegan' diet as way to go, and actually back it up with the typical unhealthy guy at start of movie, but eat vegan for x weeks case study... No prizes for those that guessed the unhealthy guy ended up more healthy after x weeks.

For me, the revelations does challenges my taken for granted knowledge on nutrition. I mean, a balance meal is a mixture of protein, carbo, fat and vitamin/minerals. For a carnivore like me, my source of protein usually is animal meat, eggs or milk. Now being told that I got my nutrition facts all wrong, and I been shoving cancer promoting food down my mouth put myself in reflection mode. Now that I think about it, how do we really know what we eat is good or bad? We typically refer to those FDA or by conventional wisdom... but how do we even know if these are reliable sources?

Anyway, the main evidence put forward in the movie is a massive scale case study in china where the huge number of rural areas are analysis in terms of diet against cancer rate. The study single out most area that diet consist more of meat have higher rate of cancer. My thoughts on this... well, I personally think it's great if one goes one a vegan diet, but to link meat with cancer perhaps is flawed in the sense, our ancestors have been hunting and eating meat since like A LONG TIME AGO, and yet the cancer ratio have actually pummel the last few decades... I feel it's not meat that's the problem, but rather what shit get feed/injected to the animal that get turns to meat that's really the problem. And when we traverse on why shit get feed/inject to these animal, we go down a familiar path of capitalism at the root of this problem. I however agree that the modern western diet is really farked up... Fast food, canned shit, etc... 

As for milk being bad,  I dunno... The argument that cow milk is made for calf hence not good for us human sounds farked up. Are plants made to be eaten by human? I however would give a benefit of doubt on the milk leading to osteoporosis argument.

So my conclusion I can draw from this movie, while it's the main theme of the movie to encourage us to be full vegan... I believe we ought to walk the middle path and simply eat more vegetable and cut down on meat and milk instead...

Yesterday Once More

Dear bloggie,

How times fly noes? Was digging my drawer when I saw tis...

My old college ID card... Hard to believe it has already been like 8-9 years ago... 

Personally I think I look alot younger in this picture (most my olds frens now say I look more "mature", which actually means I look like a geezer), and not forgetting my hair was abundance (tarik from side can cover face, now like sahara desert got a few cactus left)... 

Having compare my dashing looks, so what else is different from my younger self? For starters, while most of u can't see, I'm weight more now (not fatter but more buff OK!)... It's like comparing the incredible stick men and the amazing spiderman.... I probably got more "T" as well (Note: T = Testosterone) and think I still can throw a wicked electrifying eye contact (which tends to frighten most chicks to flee)...

That's physical differences, how about mind and spirit? Spiritually I'm corrupted by "The Capitalism". Have so many desires (desire = suffering) Money, Girl, House, Girl, Car, Girl, Status, Girl, Sex, Girl... I recall my younger self being more in tune with "Zen" having less desires.... Probably have to blame my younger self for being so ambitious less which result in my depressing state of being... 

F*CK U YOUNG BOY! 

WHY THE F*CK U DIDN'T KAU LUI BACK THEN!? 

WHY DIDN'T U PICK A BETTER CAREER FIELD!? 

WHY DIDN'T U BUY MORE 4 EKOR!?

Now I got that outta my chest, I also change a bit in terms of taste. I used to favor less bright color like blue, gray, black... Now however I'm find flashy bright colors like red, orange, gold as acceptable. 

In terms of fashion, I don't think I changed much, still favor simple t-shirts but maybe I'm leaning more towards slim-fit size more compared to baggy size which I used to favor (more muscle to show de mah, lol)... I do find myself less incline to wear jeans de, find denim material too hot and uncomfortable to wear. 

Car preference leh, I still like classic sporty car design like RX-6, Lancer, etc compared to those modern fat curve cars design like vios, myvi, city, etc but I have respect for small fat@$$ car like Myvi since very convenient to drive and park.

Well, when it comes to the big topic like girl, I'm still single and romantically hopeless...  More of my friends (not to mention anyone) around my age is probably married and have 1-2 parasites de or have a galfren de... But here I am, a social outcast... The reality of living the rest of my life single don't seem so impossible anymore....

Attitude wise, I probably more depressed than I was back then but I think my depression peak was probably 1-2 years ago... Who knows, maybe it will hit another all time high this year.... I'm less nihilist and perhaps believe more in fate and destiny now. Believe more in one should participate in life despite whatever reality (our live is fated or our live is our own creation). Wiser now perhaps I am... More aware of my mortality, flaws and uniqueness (or how freaky I am)...

So at the end of the long comparison, I have to ask myself the question... 

If I had a chance to restart my live from 8-9 years ago how would I relive it?

While I may b*tch I would do tis and tat differently, I personally think I would most likely relive it exactly as I had, but maybe with some minor changes...  Guess despite the crap/shit I experienced this past 8-9 years, deep inside me, I come to appreciate these crap/shit as things that not only mold but reveal to me, who I really am (despite me being a pile of crap/shit, lol). 

"Everything is always a give-take, you gain something, you loss something else"

If often the case, are we able stay compose when we loss something to see the thing we gain in return...

Ending this entry, here an oldies song:

Carpenters - Yesterday Once More

When I was young
I'd listen to the radio
Waitin' for my favorite songs
When they played I'd sing along
It made me smile.
Those were such happy times
And not so long ago
How I wondered where they'd gone
But they're back again
Just like a long lost friend
All the songs I loved so well.
Every Sha-la-la-la
Every Wo-o-wo-o
Still shines
Every shing-a-ling-a-ling
That they're startin' to sing's
So fine.
When they get to the part
Where he's breakin' her heart
It can really make me cry
Just like before
It's yesterday once more.
Lookin' back on how it was
In years gone by
And the good times that I had
Makes today seem rather sad
So much has changed.
It was songs of love that
I would sing to then
And I'd memorize each word
Those old melodies
Still sound so good to me
As they melt the years away.
Every sha-la-la-la
Every wo-o-wo-o
Still shines
Every shing-a-ling-a-ling
That they're startin' to sing's
So fine.
All my best memories
Come back clearly to me
Some can even make me cry.
Just like before
It's yesterday once more.

Top Ten Gym Hate Things

Dear bloggie,

Here is my top ten things I hate the most at my gym...

10. Flashy attention grabbers in group yoga/pilates class. Ranging from moaning when stretching to loud "YESH!" when they manage to perform an exercise with terrible form.
9. F*ckin farters in group classes. Imagine the instructor keep saying "breath, breath" in such scenario.
8. Skirt chasers chasing pussy cat across the gym. I know, i know... nothing wrong bout skirt chasing in gym, it's just I prefer them to do their "business" at the sofa area instead.
7. Skinny runt doing a heavy bicep curl with their hips.
6. Nudity in male locker room. I draw the line at underwear as I think showing off one's penis to the same sex is uncool!
5. Egomaniacs that enjoy to after performing some abs exercises, pull their shirt up and reveal their abs so they (and anyone within their vicinity) can see their prized 1 pack (okok, occasionally got 6 pack) at the mirror.
4. Man boobs in locker room... I almost puke blood...
3. Pussies chit chatin at the squat rack/bench press/etc when they are not using it. Common, there's like a sofa area when u can chat as long as u like bout "How long ur d*cks are"
2. Gym chicks preference at who they point their assets at.
1. Gym bah kut teh preference at who they point their assets at.

Captain America Vs The Hulk

Dear bloggie,

Why do I enjoy resistance? Well, besides the adrenaline rush that my brain get a dosage of, it's because it's like playing a RPG. Tinkering stats or abilities your want for your RPG characters, except that character is you.

In resistance training, there's several types of build... ie: bodybuilder, strength, marathoner, crossfit and etc... Tis entry I would like to blog about the body builder and strength built. What is the difference? Well, here's a great pix that I found that roughly explain both built in a nutshell:
 

I been training the body builder routine for 2-3 years, with some results... but recently decided to try out the later routine as my progress seem to have plateau. Since I don't really envision myself to be strong like a gorilla, I opt for the Wendler variation that has some body builder elements hence giving me a jack of all trade but master of none result. My current workout:

Workout A
Main Lift: Bench Press
Secondary Lift: DB Chest Press, DB Fly, Skull Crusher

Workout B
Main Lift: Squat
Secondary Lift: Leg Press, Weighted Step Up, Calf Raises

Workout C
Main Lift: Overhead Press
Secondary Lift: DB Shoulder Press, DB Lateral Raises, Cable Reverse Fly

Workout D
Main Lift: Deadlift
Secondary Lift: Good Morning, DB Rows, Pullup, Bicep Curl

A week 3 times, rotating from workout A to D. Hence week 1 will be A, B and C while week 2 continue D, A, B. The rotating will continue will each workout is done for a number of 4 waves (times) each. Each wave, we're supposed to increase the weight and reduce the reps for the main lift, going at 5 reps x 3 sets for the 1st wave, 3 reps for 3 sets for the 2nd wave and 5-3-1 reps for the 3rd wave. The 4th wave is suppose to be a de loading stage where we lift at a slightly lighter weight for 5 reps x 3 sets so we don't over fried our CNS (Central Nervous System) and muscles. Every secondary exercise will be done according to the state of the body at that workout. If one is feeling "godlike", may do more sets or reps but if feeling the opposite, can't even opt to skip the whole secondary exercises (though not recommended). The main goal is the main lift, hence we're not suppose to overexert oneself to do the secondary exercises as they serve to improve the main lift only. My secondary lifts are not so targeted to increase the main lift but more of promoting balanced growth of aesthetic (good looking) muscles. Cardio meanwhile should be limited to 15-20 minutes so my body is not over stress so my muscle and CNS will not be negatively affected in the next session.

2013

Dear bloggie,

Back to square one....



Jobless, goalless, spiritless...