Thursday, December 31, 2009 0 b*tchin

2010 New Year Resolution

Dear bloggie,

Here is my 2010 New Year Resolutions:
  1. Gain around 2.5kg of muscle
    (GROW Chest! GROW!)

  2. Improve hamstring and hip flexibility

  3. Run a half marathon

  4. Run x5 10K

  5. Try to clock a 10K under 1 hour

  6. Try out atleast 3 new hobbies and don't go NATO on one of it

  7. Revive Penang Annual Trip

  8. Sort out my career path

  9. Break into the 1600 rating in chess.com
    (Any noobs wanna challenge me, come find me, my nick "morau")

  10. Read complete a book I had not finish reading since college
    (This is perhaps the most pending thing I have dragged)

  11. Try land a date
    (1 year 1 date, people can't say I no try)

  12. Blog less, do more
Wednesday, December 30, 2009 0 b*tchin

2009 Reflection

Dear bloggie,

So here the reflection for 2009:

2009 Resolutions:
  • Pursue atleast one hobby and not go NATO on it
    I consider my GYMing as a successful thing I have yet to NATO

  • Exercise more
    Refer above

  • Quit/Reduce drinking alcohol
    Yes, Reduce drinking ALOT de. Alcohol is not the answer.

  • Start to read books again
    The only books I read still in online mangas... -_-'

  • Revive annual Penang trip
    Ultimate NATO of 2009

  • Listen to more music
    Tough call, have to say comparable to 2008 onli

  • Blog more than this year (Word count and Blog entry count)
    Yes, more b*tch entries and b*tch words tis year. Almost triple compared to 2008

  • Try to live life more than I did this year
    Ya, almost die trying to live more too...

  • Hope less
    With one hope this year, continue living as a freelancer... Indeed hope less de

  • Figure out a better path/goal that this current list for 2010
    Still pending, lets see how if I can squeeze enuff creative juice to patch together a better resolution today...
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Uncertainty

Dear bloggie,

Just attended a killer yoga class... Can really die... My leg twist till sore.

Anyway, 2009 draw closer to closure. My career meanwhile is getting more and more uncertain... Projects just keep dropping like flies recently...

I will be doing a review of my 2009 new year resolution and post my new 2010 resolution tomolo later....

Maybe it's time I change my 2009 wishlist too...
Monday, December 28, 2009 0 b*tchin

65kg Fat@$$ Pushup

Dear bloggie,

In my attempts to break my plateau in the no. of pushups I can do, I attempted this 70kg fat@$$ pushups. It been quite sometime already being stuck at 8 reps pushups. So I decided to ram up the workout today. I grab x2 5kg dumbbells and threw them into my backpack and do pushup while wearing this backpack. Struggled to even complete 6 reps... Had to throw away 1 dumbbell to reach the ideal weight for me to do 8 reps. Felt an extra soreness in my chest.

Yes, yes... I finally decided it's time to change my workout from the workout every body part x3 a week to workout 2 muscle group a day, 3 times a week schedule. Monday is my breast chest & triceps day, Wed my lats & biceps day and finally Fri my legs & shoulders day. The new workout shown some promising soreness especially for my biceps and shoulders. Triceps workout still lacking the post workout soreness I yearn for.

As for weight, my weight drop back to 60-61kg. T_T Still skinny runt...

Got thought of increasing my steroids protein powder intake but decided against it as I don't want to have too heavy dependency on it.

Anyway, MFR was b*tchin to me on MSN on how many his company colleague was throwing the letter to da man. Oddly, it sorta reminds me of my own experience on such matter. Sometimes it feels like having a part of yourself getting chipped off, especially when it's a close colleague. Once they are gone, who knows how many year before you can see them again. If things doesn't go right, you might never see them again.

Guess work colleagues are just like friends, a parcel in life. Quoting a Buddhism phrase "Every meeting is destined to have a parting".
Sunday, December 27, 2009 0 b*tchin

Creep K

Dear bloggie,

How I celebrated post Xmas...



She's RUNNING out again
She's RUNNING out
She RUN RUN RUN RUN ...
RUN... RUN...

Experience the syok sendiri as MFR during singing K with MFR and Suke. Believe it or not, MFR & I actually sang this song x3 just so we can scream our lungs out at the RUN part...
Thursday, December 24, 2009 0 b*tchin

Silent Night

Dear bloggie,

Just finish eating my silent dinner... Yea, this is perhaps the most silent xmas eve. A nice contrast compared to last year xmas...

A recap of last year Xmas eve...



So what did I had for this silent Xmas eve dinner?

Tada...



Yea, one of the few dishes I can cooked. Today I'm trying out the San Remo's Spiral Vegeroni which is suitable for slackers like me who want some vegetables in their pasta but are too lazy to prepare the vegetables. This vegeroni pasta has some mix of tomato, spinach, (some other vege)... inside. For sauce meanwhile, I decided to try out Prego's Mushroom sauce.

Cooking pasta in my opinion is quite as easy as cooking Maggi Mee. Just boil water at the stove and dump in the pasta in the smoking hot pot. Let it shimmer awhile (depends on pasta type & personal preference). Finally you drain the water and put the sause ontop of the pasta. I did a minor change by draining abit of the water and dumping the sauce into the pot with the pasta for a few minutes to get the pasta to absorb some of the sauce.

End result:



The pasta abit too soft, probably overcook it. Sauce meanwhile too watery, didn't drain out enough water. But still edible... Actually taste more balanced compared to my pasta + scramble eggs combo.
Wednesday, December 23, 2009 0 b*tchin

Experiment #13

Dear bloggie,

Out of curiosity and mainly coz I f*ckin bored... I think of a lame experiment to do. I ponder how would people respond when a "old" friend of theirs suddenly pops this question in facebook at around 2am...

"Yoyo, So late still no sleep? Stop watching p0rn liao la... Time to sleep deh"

I tested this on 2 subjects yesterday, one LOLed me while another totally ignored me (I suspect he thinks I'm a nutcase). I think I wanna test on more people see how human response. Typically in an experiment, u have a hypothesis... So my hypothesis is most people will tend to give me the "LOL" then gimme the "Piss off, I busy watching p0rn now, dun kah kah ciao ciao" treatment. Lets see how accurate my hypothesis is.

But my best hope is I managed to randomly get one of those "virgins" that would feed me the line "Yeaaaaagghhh!!!". How amusing would that be...
Monday, December 21, 2009 0 b*tchin

Last Xmas

Dear bloggie,

~Last Xmas I posted this song
~But the very next day, no one bother to read that entry
~This year, to save me from boredom
~I'll posted it up here again

Friday, December 18, 2009 0 b*tchin

Pre Monk Xmas Bash

Dear bloggie,

Yea, the pre monk xmas bash is over. Quite lame. First of all, with Suke going gungho at Tesco, we ended up buying WAY TOO MUCH ingredient for our steamboat. Alot of left overs... After steamboat, we play poker with Suke going drunk mode again from drinking BEER!? due to a side bet with Acapan. I was forced to involve myself in this side bet in place of Suke as Acapan was quite adamant on the "Loser need bottoms down" rule. Ended up forced to drink 1 1/2 cup of tiger beer... Ugh... Quite Indeed a f*ckin boring bash, 4 bachelor monks eating and drinking beer while playing poker... Somehow I feel f*ckin depressed. Still got tons of crap in my fridge left over from yesterday bash, and Suke still KOed at the sofa.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009 0 b*tchin

Lonely Xmas

Dear bloggie,

The royal circus has just left the house... Yea, home alone right now...

Damn, raining season right now... Always rain on evening when I wanna go jogging... Sienz...
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Bakau@Yoga

Dear bloggie,

Yes, finally the monk has step into a yoga class.

Overall, the poses just like Balance yoga poses. Major difference is the probably the tempo of executing the pose. In Balance follow music, in Yoga follow breath. Inhale do pose 1, Exhale do pose 2, Inhale do pose 3, ... , u get the picture. I find it more difficult to do, maybe cause I not used to the long & deep breathing required to do these poses. Some of the poses also more difficult to do, my ankle still aching after doing a particular pose. Since this whole month no pilates class, will substitute with yoga class instead.
Monday, December 14, 2009 0 b*tchin

Kiva memories

Dear bloggie,

Behold the most bizzare henshin in Kamen Rider history:



And the most bizzare dance yet...

Sunday, December 13, 2009 0 b*tchin

I feel like a loser

Dear bloggie,

I just came back from the gym feeling like a complete loser... Why? Cause again, I burnt around 300+ calories running 30+ minutes in the damn treadmill only for it to be counter balanced by eating a goddamn meal in Kenny Rogers with Suke.

That however isn't the main reason why I feel like a complete loser though. The main reason I feel so is cause while I was running on the treadmill, the TV infront of me was showing "Asia Biggest Loser". Wat a fucked up reality TV show! Ok, for starters I always wondered why they have the word Loser in this show title. I mean, fat people aren't necessary losers. It turns out, the word Loser is not referring to the loser that can be used to describe me, but rather lose weight loser. After all they crown the winner "Biggest Loser". What so farked up bout seeing this show:

1. I hate majority reality TV show, Survivor, American Idol, Malaysia Idol, India Idol, Bangala Idol, America Next Top Model, Malaysia Next Ciplak Model, The Apprentice, etc... All f*ckin fake. I meant, what kinda retarded idiots would gloat their backstab scheme infront of the goddamn camera.

2. Watching one of this BIG LOSERS lose an average of 6-14kg, while u struggling to lose abit of fat is very VERY demoralizing.

3. Watching a LOSER lose 6kg and crying cause lose not enough to win the challenge is in simple english "Sick". You here to lose weight and get a better lifestyle or to win this bloody stupid contest? All those noble reason these LOSERS give when they are asked "Why do you want to join this contest". Just a farked up version of a beauty contest...

4. Lame reason to vote someone out. "Your strong, that why I vote u out. Coz I know u can continue your effort to lose weight outside this contest." Mondo garbage, common la... As if she won't watch this episode where you scheming and talking cock on wanna gang up on voting her out with ur allies infront of the damn camera.

5. This is the main reason I feel like a farking loser right now. Watching other people exercise on TV while I myself is exercising. I can accept if I watching a bunch of sexy chicks doing aerobics in the TV la, but a bunch of overweight people!? Holy Shit! Godlike!

To end this entry, since I had Kenny Rogers, here is a classic piece from the man that's name is used as a franchise to sells chickens:

Thursday, December 10, 2009 0 b*tchin

Home Alone

Dear bloggie,

My parents are going on vacation to Aussie to catch my sister's grad ceremony next week. That means for the first time in almost 15+ years, I will again be Home Alone.



Yeehaaww... Time to PARTY!!!
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Loneliness

Dear bloggie,

Oh, raised the alarm... Call Oprah... Built a great wall of China...

Yea, there was this article in The Star today tat state according to research, blablabla... Loneliness can be transmitted!?

Ok, time out. I was like WTF!? when I saw this article. The question that immediately pops up after reading this article was, "Did I transmit my loneliness to my monk group, or them to me?" Me think a little bit of both...

So let me show you the meaning of being lonely...

Wednesday, December 9, 2009 0 b*tchin

XMas is coming to town

Dear bloggie,

Yea, yea, yea... The "Merry" and "Jolly" mood is already in town. Already checked out Bukit Tinggi Jusco & Midvalley, both already have Xmas decoration. Went to Midvalley this afternoon, damn crowded even at 3pm! WTF!? Why everybody so lazy no work go lepak in mall instead one, tiu... I always enjoy walking in Mall solo especially when got special occasion, sorta reminds me what a farked up loner I am...

A recap on my previous years Xmas,

2006 and below, Hibernate through Xmas.
2007, I celebrate Xmas on countdown at The Curve.
2008, I celebrate Xmas by boozing till I puke.
2009, ???

So with 2 weeks to go, I'm still trying to figure out wtf I wanna do this Xmas. Should I continue doing depressingly depressing things this Xmas or should I instead just sleep through it? For most people, Xmas is the very jovial celebration where u spend the day with ur loved ones, but for single kuh leng leng slackers like me, the most eventful it can get is "Sharing lonely drink with male friends"... Really sad case... Heck, even real monks in temple can celebrate Xmas with other monks... Maybe I can join them celebrate Xmas. Imagine, a bunch of monks and a balding slacker boozing and singing karaoke on Xmas eve night!

I wished GSC, TGV or watever cinema would held a Lord of the Rings Marathon on Xmas eve. That would be a nice way for me to waste that holy night.
Tuesday, December 8, 2009 0 b*tchin

Past Notion

Dear bloggie,

They say we are what our surrounding forms us into. If that's is true, then I must say the first significant outer thing that made me into such a twisted fark must be a particular essay I read in a SPM English workbook which ends with this:

"Can't remember my name, can't remember what I'm living for?"

I really wished I could publish that awesome essay but I can't find it online. Funny how I can still remember that piece of work. I never sorta liked English especially reading lame@$$ boring essays to prepare for essay writting but this was 1 of 2 essay I really held with respect. And the ending which really left a presence that makes one ask the same question.
Monday, December 7, 2009 0 b*tchin

Ban Fried Chicken

Dear bloggie,

Ugh, I'm declaring a self imposed ban on fried chicken from any fast food outlet. I just demolish a XXL Crispy Chicken from Shihlin Taiwan Street Snacks.

Walau, I can't believe my taste bud is feeling is crap. First of all, when I ordered the XXL I was expecting a normal size chicken chop, where know got 2 huge chicken chop instead. Taste ok, but dunno why I feel like VERY OILY. Maybe I been living in my cave for too long de. I last time eat KFC also same thing, taste bud feel like crap after demolishing the fried chicken, later that nite kena stomachache which flush out all this thing...

Worst I before eat just workout cardio burnt around 400 calories, eat these 2 piece of fried chicken, I think balance got +100 calories...
Saturday, December 5, 2009 0 b*tchin

EYD

Dear bloggie,

I think I'm suffering from EYD. Wat is EYD? According to BakaUpedia, EYD is short for "End Year Depression" sickness. It's a seasonal disease that often affects losers that wasted 1 whole year doing nothing but slack at the month of December.

Common signs of EYD is lack of energy, low self esteem, no motivation, no sex drive, laziness, [too lazy to think of other signs, use ur imagination here], etc... Researchers have debated the various causes of EYD but till today is unable to prove the exact cause of this illness. One popular theory on the cause of this sickness is that EYD is an allergic reaction to a genetic "FATSO25DEC" strand apparently is encoded on Santa Claus's DNA, hence on the month of December when Santa is coming to town, this allergic reaction triggers. Another theory is that the word "Merry" and "Happy" actually has a sound effect that serves to disrupt a loser's ear drum, causing disruption to their body function such as hormone inbalance, lower oxygen intake for red blood cells, weakness in brain neurons which results in EYD. Researchers in a case study have proven that losers that hear the word "Merry" and "Happy" more often tend to be ALOT more depressed than those who don't. There is still however no proven evidence on the "Merry" and "Happy" word triggering a disruption in a loser's body. The most absurd theory on the cause of EYD however belongs to self proclaimed monk which is famous for the outburst "WTF!? Niaseng! Kanineh! F*ck a bus! Baka!". This self proclaimed monk claimed that EYD is actually an illusion developed by loser that are already depressed to hide the fact they are depressed all the time to just at the end of the year. What a absurd theory! Why would anyone depressed even bother to do such a thing is beyond my comprehension. Clearly, I mean clearly this self proclaimed monk has never experience depression before...

While most losers dread the EYD, some twisted up f*ck has proclaimed that this illness may not be such a bad thing after all. There been claims that when one falls under EYD, one would suffer depression but at the same time have a burst of creativity. These claim have been ridiculed by many top scientist as "Depressingly stupid excuse to color one's depression as something good". There however has been a study on creative people which revealed that some of the most creative innovation has been done when they are suffering from EYD. For instance, the retrenched clown Ronald McDonald was suffering from EYD when he suddenly came up with the bright idea he could open a fast food restaurant which cons kids into eating his ridiculously unhealthy crap by giving away lame@$$ recycled toys in a the form of a "Happy" Meal. Even Leonardo Da Vinci which also suffers from EYD was said to be jerkin off in the toilet when he came up with the innovative idea that he could paint out his sex fantasy so he can do his business without burdening his brain to create his fantasy in his imagination every time. This particular painting is now one of the most renown and decorated paintings in the world, "Mona Lisa".

As for cure for EYD, most doctors often prescribe "Just wait till Happy New Year la". Other types of modern science cure for EYD are "Happy Pills", "LSD", "Pot" and any type of estacy pills. Eastern medicine meanwhile offers an alternative solution for those suffering from EYD.

"Western medicine no good, what problem also call pop drugs. We in eastern medicine believe in utilizing one's inner chi and energy flow to recover.".

So what does Eastern medicine recommend for those suffering from EYD?

Sex.

"When we having sex, we unconsciously activate all our inner chi-kung and our immune system. Also our heart rate evaluated to around cardio level, hence is good exercise for body. When we exercise, our brain release endorphin, our body's natural happy pill. Natural is best, like when drink milk, best drink from mother milk mah! Besides tat, we will sweat alot also which is good coz it help flush out one's depression."

This treatment however has said to be "contradict" as when one suffers from EYD, one typically has a weak sex drive.

"Aiyo, never heard Viagra one meh? Either that or find more BETTER sinseh la".

I end this entry with a song tat matches my mood now...

Friday, December 4, 2009 0 b*tchin

No auto pls

Dear bloggie,

I feeling the philosophical blues recently, I decided I wan to dissect this conversation.



Ok, I going for the jugular of the conversation above, Wally's opinion on Andre's work in his workshop which is "strip away purposefulness" aka "To live with not having any particular thing to do". In my opinion, I dun really think Wally opinion is exactly what Andre is trying to do. I think rather, Andre is doing something but he is trying to be "alive".

Now, some would call me nuts. What "alive"? Andre's not dead, so of course he is alive. I am referring to "alive" as in "being conscious while living". Sorta like Andre said, trying to avoid to go into auto pilot mode.

There's is in Japan a practice call zazen meditation, which I think something Wally could probably define as an attempt to do nothing. Now, in zazen, during meditation the practitioner will count his breath. In and out, In and out. The whole intention of the process counting breath is so we focus our whole focus into a single thing, we cut out our thinking, we cut out all the external noise, we only count our breath...

I see this as breathing "lively". Often we breath, it's something automatic that we don't even notice. We shift our focus to our breath to breath with our conscious focus on it. Note, in zazen, we don't try to control the breathing, we just let it come naturally and count it.

We start with something small like counting our breath, then slowly proceed to see, feel, hear, smell our surrounding lively. That I think is what Andre is trying to do, to achieve... To be at the moment, to be there, to be awake...
Wednesday, December 2, 2009 0 b*tchin

What is depression?

Dear bloggie,

Watching these youtube videos is making me depressed...





And alternative solution for depression?



I WANNA SMACK THIS DUDE'S HEAD!!! DAMN! I CAN"T SMACK HIS HEAD! I DUNNO WHO OR WHERE THE FUCK HE IS! ARGH!!! I'M DEPRESSED! I NEED TO SLEEP OR LOOK AT A ROSE BUD TO UNDEPRESSED!
Tuesday, December 1, 2009 0 b*tchin

Final Fantasy

Dear bloggie,



Seeing tis MV sorta makes me wanna go on a final Final Fantasy marathon... Yea, FF12 is one of those RPG games I have yet to finish, which really is a shame coz the game is really good cept the combat system (either u love it or u f*ckin hate it). We got a steady characters of 1 lala teen male, 1 lala kid male, 1 lala mid-age male pirate, 1 frenchie princess, 1 lapdancer & 1 bunny gal (Everyone luvs bunny gals, Period!).

My remarks based on playing 1/2 way FF12 is the game very Star Wars like... Alot of ke ke kwai kwai races (with exception of bunny gal race). Common, who can't say Van is a Luke Skywalker ripoff. As for Basch & Bunny Gal, they're practically Han Solo & a sexy female wookie with long ears... Ugh... I'm lost for words here... And Princess Leia ripoff, Ashe... The frenchie princess that wears close to nothing, running around hacking and slashing her foes for 9,999 damage... Holy Shit! Can't go wrong with dat formula...

Storywise, I find their approach to focus more outside Van, very refreshing. It really portraits Van as the just a dude that yearns for adventure that got mix in the whole pile of mondo crap dilemma of the other characters. Most FF series tend to focus more on the main character (FF4 to FF10, with exception of FF6) with a typical major plotline quest/story for the NPC.

Maybe I will dig up my PS2 and attempt to complete FF12. It been quite awhile since I really gamed any game. Missed those wild college days, where I can game whole f*ckin night through and sleep in the morning... I wonder why we game less and less as we age... Izt cause we sorta kena brainwash by "Reality" or izt coz we change our game to other type of "game".