New Year for a Loser

Born loser, godlike slacker... I almost forgot how "loser" I was till recent post interviews bought up this feel... Cheers, to 2008... Maybe I lose kau kau next year...

2008 New Year Resolutions

1. Get a new job
2. Master Spring framework
3. Learn to play at least one song using the guitar
4. Start investing in public bank mutual funds
5. Expand my meat list
6. Blog more often
7. Think of something to add to this list next year

I click with Tmnet? I Lag like hell with Tmnet got la

Tis is f*ckin disgraceful for a so called MSC country? WTF !?

Your current bandwidth reading is:

28.60kbps

Tiu nia seng, Yayaya "I d/l 1MB persec", I wish I could shove that bullshit up that jackass arse...

Time Flies...

X'Mas is over... 5 days before 2007 is over. Can't believe another year flew by me like tat. Recap of 2007 major events for me:

• My seniors sudden resignation - 3 Seniors that I highly respect, suddenly resigned from my company.


• Dalian, China - First overseas assignment. Also my first do or die mission.


• Perth, Australia - 2007 Company trip. First time I flew so to a country outside Asia. Memorable experience that I will cherish my whole life.


• First juniors under me - Started to take on juniors under my wings. Can't say I did a very good job guiding them. Fell kinda sorry for my juniors coz they been assigned under me.


• First motivational camp - "Enlighten Your Life". Honestly, I didn't feel enlighten at all after this motivational camp.


• My first guitar - Influenced by C.S to pick up the guitar. F*ck! I wannabe a MFR!


• Langkawi, Malaysia - 3 Monks, 1 f*cked up motel room, 1 lameass trip... Enuff said.


• Gather enuff guts to finally resign - Ironicly, quiting was my greatest achievement this year... My tolerance threshold was finally breached, so I decided to throw the towel and tap out.

What? You no religion one?

Tis is one of the most stupid piece of reply I often get whenever ppl ask me "What is my religion, and I say I dun have one". I can still remember my form 6 teacher casually asking me infront of my class why I left out my religion field in an application form and I told her I didn't have any religion so I left it blank. The sudden response I got shock me. Well, it wasn't the response from the teacher that shock me, rather it was the response from my fellow classmates. They looked as if I just revealed myself as an alien from Mars. WTF!? U all are rocket scientists that were smart enuff to score straights A's to get into Form 6, wtf so strange bout someone who dun have a religion? The response from my teacher was expected, berating me for my lack of religious believes... "Dalam Rukun Negara ada Kepercayaan kepada Tuhan" Oh sori, I stopped swearing the Rukun Negara vow since I realize wat it meant, was wat I wanted to fired back at her. But I kept my composure, she insisted I fill that religion field. I ask her to simply fill it for me. My guess, she filled Buddhist to that field for me.

Lets make something clear, while I dun consider myself to have a religion but I believe in God. Heck, I even pray to him sometimes. My point here is if no religion then no believe in God izt? WTF is a religion anyway? To me religion is merely a set of norms and belief for a bunch of ppl. Norms and belief made my human themselves...

So, lets say I believe in the God "Buddha", but I dun practice of give shit bout the norms and other belief of "Buddhists", where does tat put me? I recall my old high school Buddhist fren warned me "Oh, ur a free thinker... After death you will not go to heaven or hell... You will just dissapeared." Ok, great... I seen tons of ppl who pray to God and do those ceremony things to show their sincerely to God. But on their normal life, they do things that harms other. These ppl disgust me the most. They fear God may punish them for their deeds, but continue to do them.

Whenever I heard any crap bout Holy War, Jihad, etc that involves a declaration of war due to religion, I knew that garbage... Wat the f*ck is so f*ckin wrong with u ppl? It's f*ckin obvious ur all believe/pray/worship in the same god. He/She only goes by a different f*ckin name to all of u. Some of u call him "Allah", others "Gods", some others "Buddha", etc. Do u all need to declare a war, shed blood, kill thousands of innocent ppl for the sake of who got god's name correct? Pls la, if you wan to war becoz of resource, money, power, greed... Atleast pls keep God's name outta you propaganda.

The Warlords

Lesson of the movie:

Woman and ambition are the bane of brotherhood between mans...

Across The Universe

All You Need Is Love

There's nothing you can do that can't be done
Nothing you can sing that can't be sung
Nothing you can say, but you can learn how to play the game
It's easy
There's nothing you can make that can't be made
No one you can save that can't be saved
Nothing you can do, but you can learn how to be in time
It's easy

All you need is love
All you need is love
All you need is love, love
Love is all you need

There's nothing you can know that can't be known
Nothing you can see that isn't shown
No where you can be, that isn't where you're meant to be
It's easy

All you need is love
All you need is love
All you need is love, love
Love is all you need
(x4)
Love is all you need (repeated)
All you need is love, love
Love is all you need
One of the many great songs featured in the movie, Across The Universe. Okay, Lets clear some dust first. Across The Universe is a musical, meaning like those Hindi movies, someone would suddenly burst out singing and dancing their way through some part of the movie (Okay, for most part of the movie). Having said that, I highly recommend tis movie to anyone who don't have problem with the fact above.

While the movie generally resolves around a group of colorful individuals around the era of Vietnam War, Radical Groups and Hippies, The main plot however tend to focus on Jude and Lucy, two lovers deeply in love with each other and their struggle to make sense of things within an era of chaos, or izt more appropriate within life itself. Having said that, the movie does make me ponder upon the question "Is all you need is love?"

Philosophical Blues

Call me a nutcase but I was always a firm believer of fatelism. Everything will happen at it's own proper time. Joy, Sorrow, Success, Failure, Life, Death... Everything has it's time... and perhaps reason...

Well, I'm currently on a "Vision Quest"... Meaning I quit my job to fasted, meditated, analyzed, prayed 24/7 on fatelism. What is my purpose in this world? Where do I go from here? Okay, okay that's all just barn crud except for the part on me quiting my job...

Well, upon reflecting on an particular incident, I discovered...

"Your entire life can turn upside down in an instances..."
It's surprising how easy it is for us to forget how fragile our life is. All it takes is one small knock at one piece of domino to set the rest of tumbling down and all it takes is one small event to turn upside down our entire life... Our confidences, pride, believes, achievements... They all come crumbling into thousands of pieces when the tides of fate coming crashing at our door.

Imagine one idiot starting a nuclear war, all it takes is just a press of a button to trigger it... Our daily life, our current financial stability, our academic background, our dream future... Where will it all go once that happens?

Having said how fragile our life is, how should we proceed on living it then? A couple of solutions are "Hey, that ain't never gonna happen to me, so why bother bout it", "I already planned my whole life, even if there's a nuclear war, I already have a plan", "Whatever happens, happens. Just got to adapt to it".

I see myself more as the "Whatever happens, happens. Just got to adapt to it" type thanks to the current state of apathy that I'm in.

Just an advice...

"Life's hard. It's supposed to be. If we didn't suffer, we'd never learn anything"
- Jesse Walace, Before Sunset
Everybody falls now and then... the higher u are, the harder u fall.