Saturday, October 31, 2009 0 b*tchin

Dreams

Dear bloggie,

They say weak man view dreams as a omen, while the strong regard it as some form of their inner most desire.

I'd wonder what dreams really are... Chemical reaction of the neurons in our brain? Some greater being trying to communicate with us? A randomly fabricated memory based on our memories? A moment of enlightenment? A moment of heighten awareness where we really awaken from the real dream? A reflection of our true self? Or our true self trying to communicate with us?

Just woke up from the most bizarre dream. So bizarre I can't remember the dream in full... But somehow, the last few moments in my dream left a strong impression in me that I couldn't forget it when I woke up. I recall while my senses will sorta voided in the dream, wat taken me by suprise in this dream is my emotions that I felt, I could actually feel real emotions... The sadness, the sense of ironic, the sense of urgency, the joy, the angst. And that stir the shit outta me when I woke up...

Wat was my dream about? Suffice to say it's about:

How sometimes we are fate's b*tch,
How sometimes fate like to play us on a string like we're puppets in a puppet play,
How sometimes fate like to play the ironic plays most of the time,
How sometimes life feels like taking a goddamn train ride,
How sometimes the people around us now are just like the random passengers in the train ride,
How sometimes these people will become close to us during the ride,
How sometimes these people have different train stop destination,
How sometimes we will inevitably separate with these people when we need to change trains to reach our different destinations,
How sometimes life is like a dream...

No, no, no... I didn't have a dream like "Before Sunrise" where I shag a French babe I met on the train, heck I dun recall any part of my dream being staged on the train... I just remembered it ended at the train transit station, yet again maybe it started there...

Talking bout start and end, me thinky think tis is a RnR way to end tis entry:

Thursday, October 29, 2009 0 b*tchin

Question of da day

Dear bloggie,

Would u give up 3 years of ur life to save a friend from death? You only have 8 days to decide...

Ignore all those moral n ethic shit that instantly pops up when u hear tis question (they're really brainwashing crap from our society) and really delve into this tis question... Really try to imagine urself caught within such a scenario, and honestly explore the train of thoughts that stream down ur mind...

Just watched "Return to Paradise"... For ur info, this movie has Malaysia in it (In a very fitting way)... And frankly speaking, I'm utterly *stunned* at the ending...

Saturday, October 24, 2009 0 b*tchin

Bakau Fitslacker W / W Post

Dear bloggie,

Cool catch title eh, "Bakau Fitslacker W / W Post" (Tribute to Kamen Rider W)...

Ok, so why am I bloggin a fitness entry at 3.48 am? Coz my leg body are aching like crap. I have probably built up stamina to endure a 1 hour class but today yesterday, I joined 2 classes at a go, hence making it a 2 hour tango...

I never imagine my leg would ache like tis just by doing *skating* exercises on doughnuts!? Ok, they weren't real doughnuts, the instructor just call em so, actually are small plastic weights (1 kg ones) u put on the barbell for Bodypump. F*CK, I thought I been through the worst with the damn Fitball, but imagine balancing urself from a 1 leg bridge position with one leg on top of this slippery doughnut for a count of 5... Diu, probably need 2 days to recover I suspect.

Ok, since it won't be a "W" post if I dun run my b*tch mouth fingers on 2 things, here's another thing I wanna rant on...



HOW F*CKING FREAKING COOL IS TIS!!! From Mamam, GYM, Coffee Bar, Massage to even a f*ckin sleeping pod!? (Too bad no hooker service though) Nia seng, I request DEMAND Google come open one branch somewhere nearby Klang now!!!

HELLO GOOGLE, I KNOW U CAN SEE TIS. I KNOW UR SEARCH ENGINE SPY ON EVERY PIECE OF CRAP IN DA INTERNET SO U CAN SECRETLY RULE THE WORLD. SO I'M TELLING YA, OPEN A BRANCH AT KLANG OR I'LL SPILL DA BEANS!

KNN, I willing to slave for ur company even though my qualification qualifies me to be a sleeping pod cleaner for ur company...
Thursday, October 22, 2009 0 b*tchin

Ultrasound Scan

Dear bloggie,

Ever wondered how it feels like when those pregnant ladies all go for an ultrasound scan to see the parasite in their belly. Yesterday I had the chance to experience it.

I been having problem with it for a week and it's starting to REALLY annoy me as it would suddenly come and go. After some advice from MFR (who is already pro old leg at tis), I decided it's best I go for a checkup.

So, there I was with the Doctor. The Doctor ask me some background information, what's the problem, what I work as, what kinda activity I do, when it started? etc... Anyway after doing some checkup on the problem area, he told me probably need do ultrasound scan. So ok, I say do it lor. He then use a marker pen to mark the problem area, a few small x, where he gonna scan on later. I then was ask to lay down on top the bed and had to grab the handles on upper sides of the bed with my 2 hands. The nurse then put a plastic paper and the doctor started to apply the gel thing on the problem area. Now for all batang out there, since u may not have chance experience such thing since u won't get pregnant one, just FYI tis gel is COLD and very sticky one. Then the doctor put the scan device and scan lor. Scan a few areas, he then point to me in the monitor screen the area of problem. That's a grade 1... I see the screen, WTF! Can see black and white onli... He then ask me to sit back to chair so he can explain the treatment. I ask him how long? He say 2-4 weeks, sometimes 6 weeks.

Anyway the doctor printout the scan as souvenir for me, here it is...


(Tore my right triceps muscle near my elbow, just a grade 1 tear. Tear at red circle above)

So the ending for tis little story is that I been banned from weights for atleast 4 weeks (Any workout that involves my right triceps), and I suckered a bunch of blog reader into thinking watever they think I'm having for requiring to do a ultrascan... Also will be extending my monking period to another 4 weeks to cut cost to cover for the RM180 damage tis ultrascan done to me... How cool is tat, need to monk and got nothing todo while monking period also, FUCK!
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Akatsuki no kuruma

Dear bloggie,



Let me first point out I can atleast sing one part of tis song...

~SAYONARAAAAA....

Love the combo of musical instruments involves and great vocal, really got *arousing* feel. Somemore got 2 monks, one on bass and another on the Kpanlogo, how can u not love tis performance dude monks...?
Wednesday, October 21, 2009 0 b*tchin

My MSN Chat with MFR Teaser 2

Dear bloggie,

MFR requested another teaser for "My MSN Chat with MFR", so here it is...

MFR touching a *les* in one of his clubbing outing...


Singing with words in MSN


How to rub at other people's misfortune


Not so friendly chat on friends...


Not so peaceful chat on Peace Run
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My MSN Chat with MFR Teaser

Dear bloggie,

A short preview for "My MSN Chat with MFR"...

Tuesday, October 20, 2009 0 b*tchin

My Dinner with Andre

Dear bloggie,



MFR asked me to d/l tis film, but with the comfort of Youtube at the edge of my browser icon, I watch it on Youtube instead...

So far I can only summarize this movie as:

"The electric blanket is giving u a comfort that just separates you from reality in a very direct way."

The movie in short talks (I really meant "talks" here) mainly on how disconnected some of us are from our life. Sorta like how we live life on auto pilot or on a trance mode. How goals can make u focus too much on achieving em, we lose touch with reality. How comfort make us oblivious to reality. How we human race are slowly turning into robots... The conflict view of what reality is for each of us... Science vs the greater force... Purpose...

One f*cking bizarre conversation, even for my standards...

Yet again, MFR and I had such level of bizarre conversation over MSN too... Maybe we can film it too, and name it "My MSN Chat with MFR".
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Wake Me Up

Dear bloggie,

Q: Wat beats drinking coffee to wake up ur sleeping brain in the morning?
A: A splitting headache from listening LOUD RnR



Me likely like tis band music, but vocals me not so like...
Monday, October 19, 2009 1 b*tchin

Uncertainty

Dear bloggie,

After almost 1/2 year of freelancing, I finally hit the "Uncertainty" stage. Times aren't so good right now, as a few project having problem... Especially in paying up the $$$... While on the short run, this shouldn't be posing any problem has I already allocated some fund for such scenario... It however does strike fear in my heart to face such uncertainty...

To be confronted with the fact that I am without a stable source of income.... I however ponder what has changed in me through these few years though. Have I become so fixated on this rat race that I forgotten the uncertainty has always been there to begin with. While it's unwise to not plan for the future, it's unwise too to try to plan too far ahead into the future. I learn and know that nothing is really permanent, our life, our wealth, our body, our principles and even our knowledge, all it takes is one small tiny second and these things we hold so tightly and dear can *Poof* vanish into thin air. Like how I almost couldn't have made it here today to blog on this...

I try to remind myself to embrace uncertainty, to go salsa dancing with it, to make love with it, for permanence is an illusion. An illusion that our mind create out of fear of losing something important to us...

What has been the main barrier that block our human potential from reaching its limit? The answer for this question lies within another question which is, What is the more common trait in human, Fear or Laziness? Hence I making an effort to feel the fear I have on my future right now, to accept this feeling... And then just let go of it... Like in the zazen meditation, accepts the thoughts that surface during meditation, acknowledge them, then let them go, and bring ur mind back into focus on ur breathing... When another thought surface again, repeat and rinse...
Sunday, October 18, 2009 0 b*tchin

Inspirational

Dear bloggie,

I haven't seen any inspirational movie lately on the TV nor the cinemas. I'm glad I had the chance to see tis movie on TV2!?



Occupying the late late nite (or rather early early morning) movie slot, the slot justification does injustice to tis very inspirational movie. While the technology involved is rather ridiculous, u just gotta love the loser trumps over backstabbing winners movies.

Ok story in short, Andy is a successful sales guy that decides to dump his job in pursuit for something greater. He ends up in La Honda (Sorta like Silicon Valley), a place where cutting edge technology products are well produced. He been thrown into a shitty impossible project by BIG time player Benoit. The project, create a computer that can be mass produced for $99. Being someone from a computer background (a f*ckin degree), this sounds like "This must a f*ckin joke right?" to me.

Well, Andy recruits some of the more oddballs personnel for this project since no one is willing to enroll for this crazy project. An indian, a social phobia overweight dude and a nutcase cum cleanphobia dude, which all 3 happens to be among the more brilliant minds when it comes to computers. The team had a hard time to cut cost of a normal computer to $99. Till when Andy's pretty neighbor babe gave him inspiration with the phrase "Simplify, Clarify, and Economize". The team then came up with the idea of uploading the whole s/w application into the internet, hence eliminating the requirement for hardware such as hardisk, CD reader, etc. Still short from $99, they even further came up with the idea of throwing out the monitor by replacing it with a hologram projector. Last is the removal of keyboard and mouse by replacing it with a pair of gloves that is link to the computer.

Before they manage to complete the software to tie the hologram projector, gloves and internet together, Benoit however forces them to abandon the project or quit their job. They take a huge leap of faith and quit their jobs. Hence now jobless, they find refuge in a old garage where they resume work on the $99 computer. They manage to complete the computer and rename it eMagi (E Magic). Often u think once a hard task like producing a cutting edge technology priced at $99, the hard part is over. Turns out, the team's attempt to sell their product didn't go as well as they wanted. That is till one lady express her interest to put a stake of 51% for tis product (Remember guys, 51% is always a sign for backstab). Desperate for $, the team agreed to the deal. They ended up being burnt as the lady told them, as major stakeholder for the product, she sold the product patten for a cheap price to a bogus company, which turns out belongs to Benoit. Typical big name business guy screws small nameless innovator scenario. All is down and glum for the team till they remember that they actually signed a contract with La Honda before they left stating La Honda is eligble to use the designs for the eMagi. Gunning for a payback on Benoit, the team try to convince the La Honda head to allow them to use the design for eMagi. Turns out Benoit already left La Honda and La Honda is on the brink of collapse due to ".com bubble burst". The team gets the rights and further pushes the design of eMagi, discarding the glove for laser sensitive detectors (hence eliminating the gloves) and a more compact design (a tube size like a small water container). On the demo for Benoit eMagi, the team screws Benoit by frying his demo eMagi and demos theirs in return. The happy ending is the team wins the gals, fame and moolah.

Also there was reference to Malaysia, the team actually made 10,000 bogus order for Benoit's eMagi to a company in KL!? LOL! Overall while the idea of $99 for laser sensitive & holographic projector sound pretty absurd and impossible, I do believe these ideas for eMagi sound pretty doable and creative. I meant take a look at our computer nowdays anyway, the application on the Internet is actually an advancement of the typical server service flow, heck Google Docs, Youtube, Facebook is an example of such possibility is workable (Sorta making the computer a dumb terminal).
Saturday, October 17, 2009 0 b*tchin

FF:Body Combat

Dear bloggie,

After weeks and weeks of prostrating, I finally got a taste of body combat class. Again, almost didn't join tis class since very packed and suke look like tak mau masuk, but I somehow managed to gather my ping pong balls to walk into the class filled with people doing kungfu all over. Suke follow suit. After a few minutes, the instructor was throwing jargon terms all over... Jab, Cross, Uppercut, etc... I was like blur, so I do wat I learn works best in such scenario, find someone nearby (in line of sight) that looks like he know wat he is doing and copycat him... While I was throwing weak punches and kicks, Suke meanwhile was like REALLY into it...

Someone call the bomba, Suke's on fire!

For the sake of my self preservation, I had to distanced myself abit from him so I don't get injured by his fury of punches and kicks. Quite fun actually the class, for some moments I really felt like I was bashing an invisible foe yet again at some times I felt more like I was dancing rather than doing combat (Especially when doing the spinning-hand-boxing move). But I notice some ppl in the class was REALLY into it, throwing punch and kicks in gaya. While suke was like a hyperactive monkey doing Street Fighter moves, I'm quite certain I looked like a slacker throwing a punch and kick (Lazy punch n kick).

Mostly do combat moves at a specific pattern, like Jab, Cross, Jab, Cross, Uppercut, Uppercut (Manage to remember tis combo onli). Almost at the end was some conditioning where did some abs crunches and pushups. Ended with some stretching, the only part I was really comfortable with, since alot of the moves also balance class I do before de one.

After class, suke contine his MEAN streak by purchasing a OSIM massager from a leng lui sales promoter (Priced RM400+). Man, really on form tis baboon...
Thursday, October 15, 2009 0 b*tchin

Honey and Clover

Dear bloggie,

I often ask why in hell is this awesome anime/manga called "Honey and Clover"? Is there a meaning behind "Honey and Clover"? I have to kowtow to the creator of this anime/manga for her stroke of brilliance for naming after seeing the finale...



If ur wondering, a 4 leaf clover is considered as a lucky sign in Japan. Hence the scene where Hagu managed to find so many 4 clover to wish Takemoto farewell is a fitting way to end this series.

Monday, October 12, 2009 0 b*tchin

3rd Choice

Dear bloggie,

"You can decided to give up or make an effort. There are only 2 choices for human to choose from. You have to honestly tell them ur feelings. The rest is up to them. To make an effort or to give up, would then be their choice. It's the same for you. It's the same for everyone.

I told a lie to Yamada-san. There are actually 3 choices. But if you believe that there are only 2, you can open pathways... So I won't say the 3rd answer." - Shuuji, Honey & Clover.

Being someone with a curiosity enuff to kill the cat, I can't help but ponder wat is the 3rd choice spoken here. I read some online comments stating it could be "leaving things as it is". Make some sense, since if u do leave things as it is, nothing gets resolves hence it's better for us to believe that there are only 2 choices, to give up or make an effort in order to resolve the issue.

One of my junior monks actually had to make such as choice, so I quote tis to him. Outcome, I ended up being mocked by my fellow monks. Stating which bible did I took it out from, ur advice is like no advice, etc... Well, I actually took it from an anime (Honey & Clover), so I expect if I told them tat, they will probably mock me more. But the fact it comes from an anime, does it meant it carry no weights? We give advice based on our gathered wisdom, feeling, knowledge & experience. In short our advice is wat we think we will do if we were in such scenario. Since we can't really gauge the outcome of a decision, isn't wat we can do best in any decision process is to be honest with ourself? It's really about knowing urself, Can u take possible bad consequences at the expense of being honest with urself? or can you live with being dishonest with urself to obtain possible good consequences? There is no right or wrong choice since it ain't rocket science...
Sunday, October 11, 2009 0 b*tchin

Bakau@Centro Run 2009

Dear bloggie,

MOTHERFUCKER! TIU NIA SENG! KHAN NI NEH! PUNDEK! BAKA! BANGSAT!

Came out short 3 minutes from my 30 minutes goals for this run. Clock a f*ckin 33 min 18 sec time, damn tulan ar... Also ranked no. 200+... for my category. Ran a faster pace at start, reach the water station (3K mark) around 19 mins+, then pick up pace again till 25 minutes+... Depleted gas at that point (Me thinky think at 4-5K mark) and had to take 2 short walking breaks, each costing me 1 min. Syit...

Overall a flat course, just noticed 1 not so steep hill near the end. 5 min 34 sec perkm is actually a good time for me since I usually am unable to sustain such a pace for more than 2-3K but my stamina clearly still need work...

The next 12K run dunno how liao lar, 6K also can't run non-stop... 1 month time, I doubt enuff time to up my stamina to that level.

Oh ya, almost forgot, the goodie bag really good. Alot of freebies voucher (Useable onli at Centro though). Also no chance chase butt tis time since men open started first... Alot of mui mui chai somemore very eye catching especially the upper body *Sigh* (Gold color T mah tat y eye catching, u thinking wat wor?)

It's won't be proper for me to end tis blog entry on a run without my Victory pose, hence...

Saturday, October 10, 2009 0 b*tchin

YMCA

Dear bloggie,

Common, everybody together now...

Y,
M,
C,
A !?

Wahahaha... How ironic indeed...

OTK and Chua must be wondering Y MCA? Y indeed... As if the Y to their Y, can be comprehend by them to begin with... One a joker that signs billion dollar contracts without reading them and another a sex fiend that preys on his female frens... Izt so hard to comprehend the Y these 2 shouldn't be 1,000 feet near politics? Yet again, our PM himself has endorsed *money* candidates, everyone deserves 2nd chance mah... Me thinky think onli those who seen the errors in their ways deserve 2nd chance, else why bother give 2nd chance? So they can repeat their mistake?
Friday, October 9, 2009 0 b*tchin

Centro 2009 Run

Dear bloggie,

The 6K run is just tis weekend...

Went to collect my bib and t-shirt today... Tis sunday, will have alot of ppl wearing gold at centro, dunno police will come tangkap ar not. Anyway, seems like alot of ALC college (An accounting college in Klang with ALOT of gals student one) gals volunteer for this event, one of these young chicks even ask tis uncle (aka me) to join another charity run (7K or 5K) at Klang Jaya... Wanted to say "Hey mui mui chai, Uncle & u go *marathon* till u sweat like siao wan ar?"...

Maybe I will join, just to go submit the form at ALC college itself... Anyway, *Ahem* Moving back to the Centro Run event, the T I got suprisingly pretty good quality (definitely worth it since reg fee is onli RM20). The T design is simple and clean but the gold color theme abit too "Selangor" for my taste but heck atleast dun hav one BIG "New Balance" sign infront of the T. My next lottery no. is 504... Also signup for New Balance Klang Run4It3 (12K run), a quite expensive RM 30 reg fee (Early birds RM25, I missed out on tis by 1 day, tiu)...

Unrelated to Centro 2009, I also injured my right elbow trying during pullups workout... *Sigh*, The injuries just keep piling up... Signs my body maybe already going downhill de...
Wednesday, October 7, 2009 0 b*tchin

Vampires: Bloodline

Dear bloggie,

Been busy playing tis ancient RPG on my lappy. An awesome RPG that runs on Half Life 2 engine. The catch of this RPG is that ur are one of the creatures of darkness and undeath, a vampire. A blend of 3rd action shoot em and RPG stats (sorta like Elder Scroll 4: Oblivion), u can play it via a shoot em or 3rd person view. Somemore the vampire got bloodline which u can choose that will affect ur characters stats and abilities. I played as a Gangrel, vampires with animalistic tendency aka lone wolves (Suit me noes).

So far frankly speaking, despite being a vampire in the game, I'm scared shit with the dungeon crawls I had to endure through. I'm no so scared of the dungeons that got tones of zombies or monsters jumping to attack u (ur vampire if u boost correctly can easily hack n slash these fodders), but rather those dungeons where there is nothing but death silence, till... HEART ATTACK...!!!

So far the most scary part actually is the less combat part, where u need to retrieve a special item from a haunted hotel to get rid of the ghost haunting this hotel. Damn f*ckin scary... Imagine walking down a junction in a hallway in the dark, when suddenly a girl run across u... Then u turn at the junction to see the girl, already vanished. Also when entering a room, suddenly the lights all go out and the vases and painting starts flying at u, when light come back on, the word "GET OUT" is scratch upon the wall. Can really sweat man, especially when u playing tis part at the middle of 2-3am.

While most part of the game, u will engage against supernatural beings, there are some mission where u engage against plain old humans (Most are fodder except Vampire Hunters). One memorable one for me is where u had to steal a brief case from a gangster doing an exchange down in a parking lot. The parking lot was filled with gangster armed with guns, baseball bats and knifes. But being the creature of darkness, I stormed in and delivered a can of bite necks. Satisfying indeed... After soaking all the damaged dealt to me by these gangster I butcher (with a firemen axe) most of them except 1, where I sink my fangs on his neck and recover from all the damaged dealt.

Worth mentioning too is the cast of colorful NPC in the game. Most are vampire f*cked up in their own f*cked up way, ranging from psychopathic dual personality b*tch to nutcase pirate... These vampires live their immortal life just like most normal beings (except for the suck blood part) in their vampire society.

Also the storyline is very engaging, alot of politics throw into the world of vampires. Best is the level of realism, f*ckin good... Just think along the lines of foul language, hookers, strippers, mafias, morphine (even got peek show) and u get a rough idea of the contents in this game. The combat however abit not so challenging, using guns are usually less efficient than charging, hack n slash method, but it does sometimes have it used, especially when u wanna gun down a monster from a distance. As a vampire, u need to feed (or rather suck blood) from kine (human). Whenever u feed, u replenish ur health and ur bloodpool which is used to cast spells. U can practically feed upon anyone, but u must make sure u are not seen performing this act, else deduct 1 masquerade point. Deduct 5 masquerade point, game over. Think of masquerade as vampire trying to hide their existence from human, so they employ this rule (reason to hide from human, so they won't be hunted by them).
Monday, October 5, 2009 0 b*tchin

Whoa 2009

Howdy bloggie,

Giddy up...



So fast time flow, another 3 more months n 2009 is another page closed in this book...
Friday, October 2, 2009 0 b*tchin

Nature's Beauty

Dear bloggie,

Since I ran out of gag to use to blog... I think I pull the old "Blog on random events and thoughts" trick...

Here a random MSN conversation between MFR (who was slacking at work) and I (who was slacking at home)...

Bakau: http://www.facebook.com/ekwei?ref=nf#/album.php?aid=112316&id=684513439&ref=mf
Bakau: tibet
MFR: chun
MFR: holy shit
MFR: surreal
MFR: but is camera effect
Bakau: looks abit fake
MFR: camera effect
MFR: use big ass camera?
Bakau: see real one, should be more beautiful
MFR: hard to say
MFR: real one lousy can make it chun by effect also

Ok, when I say "real one, should be more beautiful" (means see with own eye at tat place itself) I meant this:

A priest was in charge of the garden within a famous Zen temple. He had been given the job because he loved the flowers, shrubs, and trees. Next to the temple there was another, smaller temple where there lived a very old Zen master. One day, when the priest was expecting some special guests, he took extra care in tending to the garden. He pulled the weeds, trimmed the shrubs, combed the moss, and spent a long time meticulously raking up and carefully arranging all the dry autumn leaves. As he worked, the old master watched him with interest from across the wall that separated the temples. When he had finished, the priest stood back to admire his work. "Isn't it beautiful," he called out to the old master. "Yes," replied the old man, "but there is something missing. Help me over this wall and I'll put it right for you." After hesitating, the priest lifted the old fellow over and set him down. Slowly, the master walked to the tree near the center of the garden, grabbed it by the trunk, and shook it. Leaves showered down all over the garden. "There," said the old man, "you can put me back now."

Beauty as we all know lies in the eye of the beholder, but sometimes me thinky think the greatest beauty lies within one's original nature...
Thursday, October 1, 2009 0 b*tchin

Masa selepas masa

Dear bloggie,

A song that withstood the test of time, time after time...


Time after time - Ronan Keating

Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick,
And think of you
Caught up in circles confusion
Is nothing new
Flashback warm nights
Almost left behind
Suitcases of memories,
Time after

Sometimes you picture me
Im walking too far ahead
Youre calling to me, I cant hear
What youve said
Then you say go slow
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds

If youre lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you Ill be waiting
Time after time

If youre lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you Ill be waiting
Time after time

After my picture fades and darkness has
Turned to gray
Watching through windows youre wondering
If Im ok
Secrets stolen from deep inside
The drum beats out of time

If youre lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you Ill be waiting
Time after time

You said go slow
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds

If youre lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you Ill be waiting
Time after time

If youre lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you Ill be waiting
Time after time

Time after time
Time after time
Time after time

Ronan Keating version of the classic "Time after time"...
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Wild Wild Road

Dear bloggie,

I would like to b*tch bout one issue I find getting really serious. I noticed that there is a sharp incline in the level of sohainess in the road these few years. Being someone whom used to drive up and down an average 80km a day, I have to say it's getting more and more wilder in the roads especially in the highways.

First of all, I think alot of drivers nowdays are really extremist, either falling under the "hare" or "turtle" in their style of driving. Hence, it's often hard for me to pick a lane in the highway to drive as the these drivers dun play by the slow at left, fast at right lane rule. However the type that piss me off the most is the turtle pretending to be hare type. You usually see these @$$holes at junctions, traffic lights, etc where these bastards will do a fast n dangerous cut infront of ur car becoz they unwilling to wait for a car to give them chance. Then after the stunt, in a straight road they will drive like turtle infront of u, slowing down the whole lane to his turtle pace, CB! Wanna drive slow why even bother do so aggressive cut to begin with?

Next, the lack of IQ in the road drivers. Really, I sometimes dunno how these punks pass their driving test. No signal, Sleeping infront of traffic light (Ever wonder why traffic light green de still no movement till red light?), Wrong signal (Turn left hit right signal), Super slow turn, SMSing while driving, etc... I understand we sometimes might forget and commit this acts, but my fury is directed towards those whom do tis acts consciously.

3rd, Mat Rempit. Seriously, these guys are a menace. Zooming here and there between cars without consideration that the car might suddenly turn or move. It's bad enuff they dun care bout their life, but to expect drivers to care for their life, these f*ckin f*ckers really deserve to be ram down (Seen before these retards zoom pass car that already signal de, then raise his arm in fury coz the car almost knock him down, sendiri salah maki orang pulak, pukimak betul!). The greatest stunt however belongs to an incident I witness where the motorist rammed into a bus, I repeat... MOTORIST RAM INTO BUS, not bus into motorist... Godlike! Remember all those ads that used to appear on tv saying "Most accidents are not the fault of the motorist", ever wonder why no longer appear on tv? I rest my case.

Having almost being killed in the wild wild road myself, I come to develop some habits (or rather phobia) when I'm driving. I go to great length to avoid these things in the road: "Sport car", "Car modify to look like sport car", "White light car", "Big car like Landrover, etc". Whenever I see these from my car mirror zooming from afar, I will try to get outta the lane into the left lane beside me as fast as I can. Sometimes I wish I drive a lorry or monster truck, so when these monkey pull a stunt infront of me (or behind me), I can hit my pedal and *Squish* their car with these monkeys inside...