Dear bloggie,
Dear bloggie,
My leg is out of commission, chest sore, my core is aching, my body fatigue, my hair balding & my heart numb...
Tat about sum my retirement run experience... aka Emkay Green Fun Run 2010.
Around 300-400 people appear for this fun run. No one single familiar face though. I was hesistant to run tis run as I actually should get at least 13 days rest off running before running again after my climatic 1/2 marathon. But heck, when I heard there was a run at Cyberjaya and I saw the route, I knew, I had to run.
The race started around 7.45am, which is rather late for a run. And I regretted immediately during the race to not have brought my cap, as the morning sun was already scorching hot. Around 2-3K of the race, it seems my leg has not fully recovered and experience a stinging pain on my tibia anterior. My stamina also seem weak, maybe due to running at a much faster pace.
The route was a mixed bag one, some part up and down while some straight stretches. I managed to cover 5K in under 30 minutes, but my leg and stamina was really depleted at that point. But having experience the rainfall run in Penang, I somehow manage to continue on mental strength. I finally reach the part of the route that make me run this race. The route which pass by my office building. Yea, an odd reason to race, but u know me. Odd ball = Odd reason.
It was a rather odd feeling, running past my office on the route to the bus station which I often would walk by for lunch. Mostly I ran as a lonely runner as the front and back runners from me were separated by quite a distance.
You can imagine how glad I was when I saw the Neo Cyberjaya shop lots from a distance. I try to push my body to go faster at that point for a strong finish, but it seems I was running at emergency energy de. I run into the shop lots and into the final route to the finish line. And I managed to finish the race at a time of 51 minutes 11 seconds + 1-2 minutes (Forgot to start the clock timer when I started). Hence my time is around 53 minutes mark, which makes me think the actually distance for this race isn't 10K, but around 8K onli. Anyway, upon finishing the race I was actually given a prize... A cert my my trophy, a small tree... -_-'
Somehow I feel unsatisfied with this run. Can't run at full capacity, and didn't get the adrenaline & endorphin rush I was seeking for. Hence here I am, sitting infront of this laptop, worn out and depressed... Wat a sh*tty retirement run...
My leg is out of commission, chest sore, my core is aching, my body fatigue, my hair balding & my heart numb...
Tat about sum my retirement run experience... aka Emkay Green Fun Run 2010.
Around 300-400 people appear for this fun run. No one single familiar face though. I was hesistant to run tis run as I actually should get at least 13 days rest off running before running again after my climatic 1/2 marathon. But heck, when I heard there was a run at Cyberjaya and I saw the route, I knew, I had to run.
The race started around 7.45am, which is rather late for a run. And I regretted immediately during the race to not have brought my cap, as the morning sun was already scorching hot. Around 2-3K of the race, it seems my leg has not fully recovered and experience a stinging pain on my tibia anterior. My stamina also seem weak, maybe due to running at a much faster pace.
The route was a mixed bag one, some part up and down while some straight stretches. I managed to cover 5K in under 30 minutes, but my leg and stamina was really depleted at that point. But having experience the rainfall run in Penang, I somehow manage to continue on mental strength. I finally reach the part of the route that make me run this race. The route which pass by my office building. Yea, an odd reason to race, but u know me. Odd ball = Odd reason.
It was a rather odd feeling, running past my office on the route to the bus station which I often would walk by for lunch. Mostly I ran as a lonely runner as the front and back runners from me were separated by quite a distance.
You can imagine how glad I was when I saw the Neo Cyberjaya shop lots from a distance. I try to push my body to go faster at that point for a strong finish, but it seems I was running at emergency energy de. I run into the shop lots and into the final route to the finish line. And I managed to finish the race at a time of 51 minutes 11 seconds + 1-2 minutes (Forgot to start the clock timer when I started). Hence my time is around 53 minutes mark, which makes me think the actually distance for this race isn't 10K, but around 8K onli. Anyway, upon finishing the race I was actually given a prize... A cert my my trophy, a small tree... -_-'
Somehow I feel unsatisfied with this run. Can't run at full capacity, and didn't get the adrenaline & endorphin rush I was seeking for. Hence here I am, sitting infront of this laptop, worn out and depressed... Wat a sh*tty retirement run...
Dear bloggie,
Tis another emo post... Skip now if u dun wanna to subject urself to my self emo rants.
They say, if u can survive a marathon... u can survive anything else in life. I survive a 1/2 marathon last Sunday. My physical and mental limit was push to the limit but I endured and truimph over it. I was on top of the world for the next few days...
But it only took 2 days for me to crash and burn... It's really hard for me to manage my emotions, as I find it hard to just declare "Game Over" on her. I just want to return back to the times before I pulled the crazy stunt where I can communicate with her.
~If only, I could turn back time...
Tis another emo post... Skip now if u dun wanna to subject urself to my self emo rants.
They say, if u can survive a marathon... u can survive anything else in life. I survive a 1/2 marathon last Sunday. My physical and mental limit was push to the limit but I endured and truimph over it. I was on top of the world for the next few days...
But it only took 2 days for me to crash and burn... It's really hard for me to manage my emotions, as I find it hard to just declare "Game Over" on her. I just want to return back to the times before I pulled the crazy stunt where I can communicate with her.
~If only, I could turn back time...
Dear bloggie,
Imagine...
Urself gasping for breath,
U feel a tingling cramping sensation on ur left shoulder,
U are surrounded by the darkness of the early morning only guided by the dimly lit street lights,
Ur vision is a constant blur due to the fogs & water in ur glasses,
It takes ur complete effort to take a just step for each step sends shockwaves to the ball of ur aching feet,
Ur are drenched wet from head to toe, inside and outside,
U feel like ur weight + a ton due to the resistance of the wind, heavy rainfall and water soaked into ur clothes,
U are exposed with no protection what so ever to the bombarding of heavy raindrop from the heaven skies,
U know u had barely finished 1/2 way through...
Ur spirit starts to dampen, ur willpower starts to erode, and doubt starts to haunt ur mind....
U start to ponder....
"WTF am I doing here? I should be in my bed with a thick blanket and sock on my cold feet"
This is how I felt during about 13K mark in my 1/2 marathon run last Sunday. For ur information, it started to rain when I reached the 10K mark and by 11-12K+, it started to rain heavy. When I say heavy here, I mean really heavy. The rainfall where if u sit in ur car, u can heard loud sounds of raindrops bombarding the roof of ur car. Imagine urself outside ur car dressed in just a vest, a short sport pants, socks and shoes. To be honest, tis is the first time since I started running in these events, I thought about quitting a race. Each step at that moment were like the hardest steps I ever took in my life.
Some of u are probably lost, so let me start tis rather tall tale (for me la) from the start...
I was awoken from my sleepless slumber by the sound of beeping alarm. My body automatically arose and I see my room mate, Daniel also arose from his slumber. He exclaim "It's 2.30am de". My mind was still 1/2 asleep but those words were enuff to send it into a frantic panic mode. OMG!!! We had overslept!!! Daniel and I quicky got ourself dress into our war gears and rush outta the room. Our poor hostess (Sori, dunno spelling for her name) was sitting 1/2 asleep at the dinning table. I felt a slight pangs of guilt back then, but that guilt was replaced quickly by the panic to get to where we are supposed to be right now. Our hostess drove us to our destination, in the car all sorts of thought of arriving late played on my mind. Enduring a journey more than 300K+, arriving 1 day earlier, sacrificing 1 day of vacation... only to be late...!?
Anyway, more panic ensues as we almost arrive at our destination, there was a road block. It seem this is as far as our hostess could drive us. Daniel and I had to make the rest of the journey to our destination on foot. We started of walking, there were also a few others like us that was heading to the same destination walked the same road. The road seem to stretch forever, as when we heard the loud sound of countdown, Daniel and I started to shift a gear up and started jogging. I was undecided at that point to shift another gear up or remain the stable jogging pace as I fear going to fast now would cost me dearly later. We remained at rather slow jogging pace. I sighed a silent sigh of relief when we finally arrive at our destination and there were still many people dressed in bright yellow vest walking around. We weren't late. We stop jogging and started walked (nice warm up I have to admit) among those of our same brethren, that just like us are heading to the same destination. We were JIT (Just In Time)...
10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4,
I feel the adrenaline +1
3...
My heart pumping faster
2...
This is it
1!!!
It's finally has began... Like bees being provoked from something threatening their hives, huges waves of peoples in yellow vests swarm pass the destination to embark on their own fight and journey for their holy grail...
Daniel and I kicked off with an easy walk as it was hard to jog or run in this swarm of peoples. After 3-4 minutes of walking, we finally reached our destination, the end of our early morning little adventure... Yet, as I step my foot onto and crossed the destination, a journey has ended but a new one has just began... The destination has became the start point for this new journey, and at the same time it is also the final destination of this journey (Very ironic, noes?)... Looking forward to the route in front of me, I feel the excitement, electricity & [insert watever positive energy u can think of here] of being at this event. I was running in the Penang 1/2 Marathon 2010...
(Incase if ur wondering, our destination was the starting line for the Penang Marathon 2010...)
[To be continued...]
Imagine...
Urself gasping for breath,
U feel a tingling cramping sensation on ur left shoulder,
U are surrounded by the darkness of the early morning only guided by the dimly lit street lights,
Ur vision is a constant blur due to the fogs & water in ur glasses,
It takes ur complete effort to take a just step for each step sends shockwaves to the ball of ur aching feet,
Ur are drenched wet from head to toe, inside and outside,
U feel like ur weight + a ton due to the resistance of the wind, heavy rainfall and water soaked into ur clothes,
U are exposed with no protection what so ever to the bombarding of heavy raindrop from the heaven skies,
U know u had barely finished 1/2 way through...
Ur spirit starts to dampen, ur willpower starts to erode, and doubt starts to haunt ur mind....
U start to ponder....
"WTF am I doing here? I should be in my bed with a thick blanket and sock on my cold feet"
This is how I felt during about 13K mark in my 1/2 marathon run last Sunday. For ur information, it started to rain when I reached the 10K mark and by 11-12K+, it started to rain heavy. When I say heavy here, I mean really heavy. The rainfall where if u sit in ur car, u can heard loud sounds of raindrops bombarding the roof of ur car. Imagine urself outside ur car dressed in just a vest, a short sport pants, socks and shoes. To be honest, tis is the first time since I started running in these events, I thought about quitting a race. Each step at that moment were like the hardest steps I ever took in my life.
Some of u are probably lost, so let me start tis rather tall tale (for me la) from the start...
I was awoken from my sleepless slumber by the sound of beeping alarm. My body automatically arose and I see my room mate, Daniel also arose from his slumber. He exclaim "It's 2.30am de". My mind was still 1/2 asleep but those words were enuff to send it into a frantic panic mode. OMG!!! We had overslept!!! Daniel and I quicky got ourself dress into our war gears and rush outta the room. Our poor hostess (Sori, dunno spelling for her name) was sitting 1/2 asleep at the dinning table. I felt a slight pangs of guilt back then, but that guilt was replaced quickly by the panic to get to where we are supposed to be right now. Our hostess drove us to our destination, in the car all sorts of thought of arriving late played on my mind. Enduring a journey more than 300K+, arriving 1 day earlier, sacrificing 1 day of vacation... only to be late...!?
Anyway, more panic ensues as we almost arrive at our destination, there was a road block. It seem this is as far as our hostess could drive us. Daniel and I had to make the rest of the journey to our destination on foot. We started of walking, there were also a few others like us that was heading to the same destination walked the same road. The road seem to stretch forever, as when we heard the loud sound of countdown, Daniel and I started to shift a gear up and started jogging. I was undecided at that point to shift another gear up or remain the stable jogging pace as I fear going to fast now would cost me dearly later. We remained at rather slow jogging pace. I sighed a silent sigh of relief when we finally arrive at our destination and there were still many people dressed in bright yellow vest walking around. We weren't late. We stop jogging and started walked (nice warm up I have to admit) among those of our same brethren, that just like us are heading to the same destination. We were JIT (Just In Time)...
10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4,
I feel the adrenaline +1
3...
My heart pumping faster
2...
This is it
1!!!
It's finally has began... Like bees being provoked from something threatening their hives, huges waves of peoples in yellow vests swarm pass the destination to embark on their own fight and journey for their holy grail...
Daniel and I kicked off with an easy walk as it was hard to jog or run in this swarm of peoples. After 3-4 minutes of walking, we finally reached our destination, the end of our early morning little adventure... Yet, as I step my foot onto and crossed the destination, a journey has ended but a new one has just began... The destination has became the start point for this new journey, and at the same time it is also the final destination of this journey (Very ironic, noes?)... Looking forward to the route in front of me, I feel the excitement, electricity & [insert watever positive energy u can think of here] of being at this event. I was running in the Penang 1/2 Marathon 2010...
(Incase if ur wondering, our destination was the starting line for the Penang Marathon 2010...)
[To be continued...]
Dear bloggie,
It been 2 days since my HIGH run... The adrenaline and endorphin rush has returned to it's normal level... And I feel as if I'm seeing the world in slow motion. Everything seem to move like so f*ckin slow pace... It feels like wat a f*ckin boring and insignificant life I been living normally compared to the fiery "wet" weekend. My body is still in Repair mode, but my mind and spirit is craving for more of this "High" moments... At times like this it's hard not to ponder upon my choice of job I do to earn my bread & butter...
It been 2 days since my HIGH run... The adrenaline and endorphin rush has returned to it's normal level... And I feel as if I'm seeing the world in slow motion. Everything seem to move like so f*ckin slow pace... It feels like wat a f*ckin boring and insignificant life I been living normally compared to the fiery "wet" weekend. My body is still in Repair mode, but my mind and spirit is craving for more of this "High" moments... At times like this it's hard not to ponder upon my choice of job I do to earn my bread & butter...
Dear bloggie,
Just a short update since my adrenaline is still quite high despite almost 2 days after the "Longest" run in my entirerunning career life...
Yea, I survived & endured the elements of mother nature...
Earth = 21K,
Fire = Body overheating due to metabolism on the overdrive,
Wind = Strong gust slowing me down to a crawl,
Water = Heavy rainfall that's strong enough to make one kowtow to the sky on their knees,
Heart = The dynamic human spirit struggle to go on despite the scream from one's body to stop...
Together we call, "Captain Planet"...
And my timing...
Official Time (Time from start whistle) : 02:29:57
Net Time (Time from I cross start line) : 02:25:08
// Will post my rants on PBIM tomolo
Just a short update since my adrenaline is still quite high despite almost 2 days after the "Longest" run in my entire
Yea, I survived & endured the elements of mother nature...
Earth = 21K,
Fire = Body overheating due to metabolism on the overdrive,
Wind = Strong gust slowing me down to a crawl,
Water = Heavy rainfall that's strong enough to make one kowtow to the sky on their knees,
Heart = The dynamic human spirit struggle to go on despite the scream from one's body to stop...
And my timing...
Official Time (Time from start whistle) : 02:29:57
Net Time (Time from I cross start line) : 02:25:08
// Will post my rants on PBIM tomolo
Dear bloggie,
Ok, maybe these ain't war cry, more like motivational quotes...
"Sometimes the moment that challenges us the most, defines us."
"You go through that mental struggle, and physical struggle. And you say geezzz... This is really, really, really hard."
"The marathon is like life. You gonna hit hiccups and rough period but it's about you handle them and come through them."
"When you cross the finish line, no matter how slow, no matter how fast, it will change your life forever."
"It's a physical challenge for sure, but it's also a mental challenge. It's fighting through those walls that you don't think you can fight through. That's what the marathon teaches, it teaches you to keep going."
"People run the marathon to prove that there is still triumph and there still is possibility in their life."
"We triumph over adversity that's what the marathon is all about. And therefore we know that there not anything in life we can't triumph after that."
"You think there some many other things in your life that you look at and they look like things that 'I can't do that, there no way I can do it' and all of a sudden, you realize what you are able to do."
Really pumped up for the 1/2 marathon... Trying my best to resist the urge to run now as I'm already in my tapering period...
Ok, maybe these ain't war cry, more like motivational quotes...
"Sometimes the moment that challenges us the most, defines us."
"You go through that mental struggle, and physical struggle. And you say geezzz... This is really, really, really hard."
"The marathon is like life. You gonna hit hiccups and rough period but it's about you handle them and come through them."
"When you cross the finish line, no matter how slow, no matter how fast, it will change your life forever."
"It's a physical challenge for sure, but it's also a mental challenge. It's fighting through those walls that you don't think you can fight through. That's what the marathon teaches, it teaches you to keep going."
"People run the marathon to prove that there is still triumph and there still is possibility in their life."
"We triumph over adversity that's what the marathon is all about. And therefore we know that there not anything in life we can't triumph after that."
"You think there some many other things in your life that you look at and they look like things that 'I can't do that, there no way I can do it' and all of a sudden, you realize what you are able to do."
Really pumped up for the 1/2 marathon... Trying my best to resist the urge to run now as I'm already in my tapering period...
I've come to b*tch to you again,
Because a depression softly creeping,
Left its seeds while I was sleeping,
And the depression that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence...
Dear bloggie,
After almost 2 weeks hiatus, I'm back again. Very very hard to not blog as it seems tis sh*thole is the only real place I can vent out my emotions deep inside of me.
Suffice to say, tis 2 week been quite a up and down roller-coaster ride for me (mostly down).
Work wise, I completed my work in time but since my work is quite trivial one. I have to say I learn a lot of things this 2 sprints, JAXB, SOAP, Mock Object, Timer Task, Log4J (Still learning tis)... But I still feel like useless crap seeing how lacking my skill is compared to my other college, even the newest member to my team has Spring knowledge to boost, while I practically have nothing special to flaunt. And while I enjoy slacking after completing my task, I do find slacking while my other team members slog like sh*t can demoralized one's spirit. Call it peer influence/pressure...
Also, in a desperate attempt to try to fix my balding spot, I enrolled for Yun Nam Hair Care. They say my bald spot problem is caused my extremely bad dandruff problem and claim they can fix it for 3 months of treatment at the price of RM5K. I stupidly enrolled for it... Only to learn via the internet, there is ALOT of complaints on Yun Nam treatments. And on my 1st day of treatment, they make a u-turn claim and stated I need extra treatment too fix another cause of my hair loss which would require another additional 1.4K. Since I was already alarmed by their approach, I say NO THANKS, and contacted someone from NCCC on my Consumer Right for a f*ckin refund, as I seriously now doubt their treatment creditability. According to NCCC, I have a right to demand a refund on treatment and products that I have yet to take from them. Better be bald then be bald and poorer by 5K.
As for running... Yea, will be running the Penang 1/2 Marathon. Enrolled last second last month. Managed to train 2 weeks for this run (Badly disrupted by recently rainfall), I seriously have big ??? on my ability to survive this 20K. I'm quite confident of finish a 15K, but the extra 5K... I really dunno will my gut and will power be sufficient to pull me through it. Will be heading to Penang tis Saturday with Rukawa and his co. Looking desperately for a place to get a special haircut for this run (Anyone know where can get side cut with pattern one?). But my heart is a bit weighted down by another matter....
Last, my greatest joy and sorrow. My heart is still bleeding from the rejection. As MFR said, "first gal u try to really impress n kena reject". She seem to forget my stupid stunt already, but I somehow still doing really REALLY stupid things... My mind say let go, but my heart just refuses to let go... *Sigh*, no wonder Buddhism claim this kinda love is the path of suffering la... I'm trying my best to just convey my feelings to her unconditionally, with no expectation. That was my belief before this occurred and I will try my best to hold on to it. But somehow I think my ego taken a huge hit because of this, as one of my ex-college claims that nerd gals like tis are quite easy to fish one, 2-3 tries catch... Easy catch also I can't catch... Really demoralizing...
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