Lost and gain

Dear bloggie,

Went for an interview yesterday. High chance get offer next week. Not bad company I see. Work hour 9.00 to 5.30, near by only (Kota Kemunting), casual wear, great learning opportunity (Technology is based on project), office located outside normal hell holes (quite quiet area), no parking woes (Open + Free parking), Subsided toll & No need to travel (unless to client site in US, which normally is done by team lead and manager).

Overall, a very nice work package. But somehow I'm still can't help feeling sad to give up my current gungho lifestyle. I feel as if I leaving behind a place forever. They say that life is suffering, suffering cause we are born to die. Suffering because for every good we get, when that good thing gets taken away from us inevitability, we suffer at the lost. Some even suffer at the fact we will lose that good thing.

Body Balance, Yoga and Pilates was something I found within this 1 year of break from the mad rat race, I have to say I come to enjoy it more than I ever enjoyed anything within these few years. Maybe it's the endorphins but I actually feel good after class. And perhaps that is why I find it hard to let go. 2 outta 3 of my favorite classes is in the afternoon time slot so if I do accept the new job, I will have to give up on 2/3 of my current hobby.

One class, I been attending for almost 1 year. The class that actually turned my entire dull life around. The class that actually gave me something to look forward to, every week without fail. From this class, I found the other 2 classes that I also came to enjoy, one due to a instructor replacement which lead me to attend his normal class and another one, this one will definitely be very hard to let go. True, there are other classes in other time slot, but it will be different flavor. It's like going to a cafe, then suddenly the cafe moved... The new cafe might still serve the same coffee taste but the environment will be different. That's cause everything in life is actually made out of such unique and special qualities that we often don't notice or ignore.

"Something's lost but something's gained in living every day"

Maybe I been stagnant too long indeed... People often say "stagnant" is a bad thing, no growth, etc... But really, there are many ways one can live one's life. Does living only involve growing or running forward?

I dun mind returning to slaving actually, I just have problem giving up these small feel good moment I just found. Yet again, maybe it's time I try other flavors... Losing something good ain't necessary a bad thing, we might be lead to something better at the end of the road... It's like getting divorce with one's wife one love so much, heartbreaking yes but u might end up finding a more "better" wife... or maybe not...